Miracle... Lyrics

I roll up my blunt and run away from everything, everything

Pour in my glass until I cannot feel anything, anything

It could be worse, could be much worse, I've been through hell

I looked the devil up in the eye and saw a story to tell

442 and two trains home

Overthinking 'till my brains gone

Can't even get up onto my feet

Pockets empty for another week

Over and over my heart's been broke

All of my life I been desperate and broke

Waiting for a miracle or two

Sometimes I think I should wait for you

'Cause I'm not motivated without you

You're more than a woman, won't count you

As just a body, girl you made me feel

Like I'm acceptable before the mill'

Like peace is something I can really feel

But now love seems like a myth

Life flows and blends with the mist

I got one shot, hope I don't miss

'Cause everything I need

Is so far away from me

I'm dying for a punch in my ticket

A punch in my ticket

'Cause everything I need

Is so far away from me

I'm dying for a punch in my ticket

A punch in my ticket

I roll up my blunt and run away from everything, everything

Pour in my glass until I cannot feel anything, anything

It could be worse, could be much worse, my mama's boyfriend's in a cell

He left us in the dirt it's safe to say his karma is jail (Damn)

I'm cold as December nights, I walked home in those

I used to want something real, but all I can find is h-

Deep under pressure, can't even feel the sun anymore

Feeling like I'm buried alive with my two feet still on the floor, damn

I'm feeling hopeless, no one to call

Can't put the burden on no one at all

I'm a grown man I can find my way

Until I make it out to the escapades

I need an escape, you can't feel my pain

Everywhere I go I'm half dead

Look in my eyes, no emotion left

Put the novocaine back in my veins

'Cause everything I need

Is so far away from me

I'm dying for a punch in my ticket

A punch in my ticket

'Cause everything I need

Is so far away from me

I'm dying for a punch in my ticket

A punch in my ticket

Be careful what you wish for, I was sick of waiting

Couldn't take the bulls-, we just getting faded

3 years ago, used to rap inside the basement

17 and dreaming 'bout being A-List

Now I'm 20 and I got a tumor, damn it

This so bizarre, I'ma get it examined

Needed a biopsy, it was spontaneous

They looked at me and said I'm a cancer patient by chance...damn

They turned my head and said "look"

I was so shook, thinking 'bout my life

Showed me an ultrasound, it ain't look right

My jaw went numb with a needle in my neck

All the b- I went through, is this what's next?

It can't be, I ain't get to see the world yet

I can't be under 21 and breathe my last breath

But it's something I learned to accept

If my time is sooner than I expect

I'll leave it all behind for you to digest

My mark on the people's what mattered to me, not all of girls that I could get

Or the money, or the career that I progress

Or any material that I possess, but I digress

What I realized was this

Nothing matters more than the love you got

When your life is over, that's all people got

When they ain't got you no more

Mama looking at your pictures, tears all on the floor

That's what I pictured, it cut me so deep

Diagnosis got delayed for a week

No sleep, but then came God

Final result, the tumor's benign

Miracle...

Everything I need

Is so far away from me

I'm dying for a punch in my ticket

A punch in my ticket

'Cause everything I need

Is so far away from me

I'm dying for a punch in my ticket

A punch in my-