honest with myself (acoustic) Lyrics

Is it morning or is it afternoon

Light is blinding

The sunshine feels foreign on my face

And all I feel like is a mistake

Got an awful taste in my mouth

Am I giving up too soon

Wanna get up

But I can't seem to muster up the strength

My sanity is crumbling to waste

And a solitary question remains

Am I honest with myself

Am I telling the truth to the face in the mirror

That's scaring me now half to death

Am I honest with myself

Can I admit when I need help

When I'm still lying in bed at three pm

Saying I'll get up when I feel well enough

Am I honest with myself

Am I broken

I used to feel alive

I'm just numb now

I wish I could fill this empty space

Let anger or sadness take its place

Cause it's better than feeling nothing at all

I need somebody that I can call

Someone to tell me that it's okay

That I just need some serotonin in my brain

But am I brave enough to say

Am I honest with myself

Am I telling the truth to the face in the mirror

That's staring me down half to death

Am I honest with myself

Can I admit when I need help

When I'm still lying in bed at three am

Hoping I fall asleep and never wake up

Am I honest with myself

I don't want your pity

I don't want your love

I just want to be alone

I just want to be alone

I don't want your pity

I don't want your love

I just want to be alone

I just want to be alone

I don't want your pity

I don't want your love

I just want to be alone

I just want to be alone

I don't want your pity

I don't want your love

But don't you dare leave me alone

Don't you dare leave me alone

Am I honest with myself

That I'm lost and afraid but I need to have faith

It's okay if things don't always make sense

Am I honest with myself

With any hope that I have left

I've gotta try to be brave as I get up and pray

That maybe one day I will feel well enough

If I'm honest with myself