sexuality (freestyle) Lyrics

I don't understand why you left me

And I don't understand why I feel so old

We started off roughly

I never called properly

And then it spun down in circles

Nothing feels right without him

Another one comes to my life

And I thought he was the one

He had shaggy brown hair and a smile that was undone

It stayed for three months and it came off and on

But then he said we're better as friends and that was our end

Another one along came strong

And I only was there

Because I felt alone

But it's funny how it works out that

When I was with him I was even more

That ended summer came and then I

Fell in love with a toothpick on my brain

Who smoked too much weed

Periodically

But at the end of the day there's only one

That I would throw up my whole gut for

This sunshine

In my life

The one I hold close to my heart

I guess I knew it from the start

But I pushed it down in my hope

I fell for multiple guys along

But I knew all the time it was wrong

Cause there's only one person this whole time

I guess it's my questioning of my own sexuality but

This is really confusing me in my head

I thought we were only friends

Then another came in my life

She was

Very pretty

And rather nice

But I couldn't be by her side because I couldn't stand to say "her"

I said her to this girl

And then every time my heart poured out of my chest

Filling up this void I have with masculine energy

But at the end of the day

All I want is some moonlight on my soul

I stick around with a frown

Because men that I have no attraction to

Because I need to hide

All of my feelings from you

The only girl I want my dear

No

The only person I need my love

It's you it's always been you

What the fuck am I doing to myself?

Cause sexuality is confusing me

And it's making me cry inside and I

Wanna curl up and die