More Than Music IV Lyrics

More Than Music IV - Ollie

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You ever feel like you don't say enough while also saying too much?

Overthink so long 'bout what people gon' probably judge

Too many signs misread from ones I thought I loved

Guess the closest to your heart can deal you the worst cuts

Lately petrified from these lessons I shoulda known

Start to question my existence—the other thing's that I don't

It's why I'm closed off, unread messages on my phone

And the words I wish I said all stuck inside of my throat

Tryna let it out, they told me, "Breathе, trust me, you fine"

While my hеart rate increased, anxiety filled my mind

I can barely go a day without fearing my own decline

So I pace around my room, alone, writing these lines

I'm defeated often, oh the irony of persistence

And pursue the happiness I confused the purpose of living

It's a blue sky outside but I ain't close to finished

I obsess over this fear, letting down future children

I'm a menace, I'm an outcast tending with all this pain

I'm as lonely as a spell that's cast away in the rain

Built a castle on a hill that crumbled from all this change

Tryna put it back together is different but still the same

Am I making sense? What if I'm not even making sense?

What if I dropped a song and no one relates to me in the end?

I know it all depends

I feel my heart beat through this pen, I think it's heaven-sent

I don't just fake weak for a trend, this is all I got

My side is beautiful

This is all I got

My side is beautiful, I know

My side is beautiful

My side is beautiful

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Every piece of me inside this music

Somedays scared I won't get it back

Often think about the factory job that I started at

Would I be happier never checking on my social stats?

Got so blinded by a dream and the things that I coulda had

Soley guided by emotion, stranded out in the open

Waves crashing overboard as my spirit was barely coping

Trouble holding on, except to this cigarette that I'm smoking

This ain't what I planned, not even close to what I was hoping

But there's beauty in the struggle, something I'd come to find

God tests His strongest soldiers to keep 'em present in mind

And in mine, would you stay? Never leave from my side?

'Cause in Christ, you strengthen me, I'm so powerful I could fly

But I stumble often, I'm not as perfect as I seem

All this anger in my chest I keep hidden behind the scenes

Along a journey and my growth, I'm only a human being

More Than Music is precisely what all of these lyrics mean

It means I'm incomplete, broken, often misunderstood

On this lonely road we walk, never gave up when others would

Found in a lost place, done everything that I should

Just 'cause there's darkness in my past it doesn't mean I'm not good

I swear I'm trying

My side is beautiful

I swear I'm trying

My side is beautiful, I know

My side is beautiful

My side is beautiful, I know

My side is beautiful

My side is beautiful, I know

My side is beautiful

My side is beautiful, I know

My side is beautiful, I know

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