Survival Lyrics

I was at my rock bottom when the angels came

No capes

Just a prayer on rainy day

On my knees

Another drunk day i gave away

I Know I need a savior

But this vodka is the easy way

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I was laying in my own stench

Sleeping under da stars

I ain't own ish

Homeless

Hated living in my own skin

How'd I get from valuing life

To living worthless

Ha

I can't blame it on the playing field

Cause I was as smart as a whip

Educated

Park parlayed to laziness

The harder it gets

Every time I had to show up

The harder I quit

Truth is

I was raised by addicts

Trained to cover up heart pains

Habits had a way ta get me outta head

The hard things

Them Dead feelings turn ta baggage Departing

My self esteem was on E

Cause moms had her on probs-

She chose the rocks over me

And There's My first false belief

I am not worthy of love

From the one who birthed me

Put me on this earth all I need is a hug

But my young mind believed all she needed was drugs

I proceed with a shrug

Started off with weed

To the beans

I felt free with a buzz

This is normal

Nothing evil

Getting deep in the mud

Fast forward twenty years

Oh the fiend of I've become

I Don't know who I am

Or who i'm posed to be

Manipulating and stealing from everybody close to me

Self sabotaging and burning bridges explosively

That disappointed little boy is the ghost of me

I no longer do anything of my own might

The only place I find power's in a pint

Stumbling through the dark

I ain't ready ta see the light

Trying to receive healing

By being high as kite

Deaths the theme of my plight

Believe me I seen it twice

I'm cuffed to my demons

They leading me to the knife

I'm holding it to my wrist

Hopeless ready to slice

I'm done living in fear

For sure I'm ready tonight

I'm all outta booze

My time is done in this life

I fall to my knees

And hear the voice of Christ

He said

Give me your broken heart

And all of its dark pieces

Your fear and anger

I'll teach you how to release it

Release it

Release it

Release it

That's how I survived

Now I rise like the phoenix

Put my pride to the side

And my eyes on Jesus

The Kairos is coming