December Nights Lyrics

I've been talking to the pastor

Tryna find my way back

Up in this confessional

Need my money up front

Cause if we doing business

Gotta move professional

How you say that I'm your dog

And then you go and diss me

Man that ain't respectable

Never tell them whatchu thinking

Keep it to yourself

Can't be too accessible

All the ones that I let closest to my heart

Done let me down when

They abandoned me

I dont even wanna talk about all my emotions

They ain't understanding me

I relate to all my fans

I'm trying to build connections

Do it all organically

When there ain't no one you could vent to

It just start to feel like you gon' lose your sanity

Politicking with my homies

We just talking life

It was getting hella windy

And it's getting dark on these December nights

And I can't be hypocritical

I really gotta take my own advice

Tryna let go of a lot

They want me forgive

But they ain't do me right

Can't be all up in my feelings

Now I keep my head up

And I gotta thug it

My dawg said he was losing hope

I had to keep it real

And tell 'em that he buggin

But how I'm even gonna blame em

When he's in the hood

And he gotta tuck it

Tell 'em you just gotta want it

Deep up in your heart

To go and chase a bucket

Wonder if I make out

Is it gon be a blessing

Or it's just a curse

Tryna make my life better

But I know the hate

Keep on getting worse

People wanna be around me

And I always knew that

They ain't see my worth

All I needed was some love

But it was really difficult

For me to search

Try to tell 'em

They ain't wanna believe me

Never thought that it would ever be easy

They still ask me if I hang with my demons

Everyday up in my head they be screamin

I'm just tryna figure out what's the meanin

Off the wake up living what I be dreamin

When we up you know I'm putting my team in

Head coach got the plays and I'm schemin

Politicking with my homies

We just talking life

It was getting hella windy

And it's getting dark on these December nights

And I can't be hypocritical

I really gotta take my own advice

Tryna let go of a lot

They want me forgive

But they ain't do me right

How they me telling me to trust

The only time I trust is

When I pray to Christ

Lately I ain't losing focus

I don't want talk about

What's out of sight

Tryna come up on some

Large amounts

I know it look like

We just hit a heist

Know they wanna see me fall

But I'ma have to fight

Like we was on the ice

Can't be all up in my feelings

Now I keep my head up

And I gotta thug it

My dawg said he was losing hope

I had to keep it real

And tell 'em that he buggin

But how I'm even gonna blame em

When he's in the hood

And he gotta tuck it

Tell 'em you just gotta want it

Deep up in your heart

To go and chase a bucket