Pretend Lyrics

Can't cover up that heart to long cause I know, that pain coming in

Lately I see that rain coming in and that fame coming in

Lord knows that I've been working hard

I don't gotta do it with a squad or fucking body guards I'm my protection

I'm God's blessing, I'm God's lesson

Young nigga stuck to his roots I give the street affection

Took so many L's in the past that I can't accept rejection

When I tried to marry my goals life had to scream objection

Me and my father we still ain't speaking up

Me and old friends we still ain't syncing up

Me and my sister been hella distant (huh)

I wanna forgive her but I just can't forget it (huh)

You can only be betrayed by the ones you love

That means the greatest source of pain is from the ones you trust

I got a lot that's on my brain and it can't wait to bust

But I don't think that talking now would really be enough

I watched my sister pick a nigga over blood that's tough

My niggas fell out, split they ways and left me solo bruh

I really gave a hoe my heart man I was fucking up

But I'm switching up I swear that I gave loving up

I ain't saying fuck y'all niggas I just outgrew you

Y'all treated me someway that I would never treat you

It hurt me more cutting you because I love you

But I rather end it now before I hate you

And that's the damn truth, what I gotta lie for?

Ever since we cut ties a nigga learned to smile more

You can keep the fake love that's how niggas die more

Clocking in my last effort God knows I tried more

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I know we ain't talk in a minute ohh

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I know that our bond keep on shifting

I just wanna go and see the stars in a wraith

I don't want my love for you to turn into hate ohh

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I'm just sick and tired of pretending

I'm only running for a Grammy not no fucking Oscar

Is it hard to ask for people just to love me proper?

I felt like people liked me more when I talk bout choppas

But then I grew to hate my self so I had to put a stop

Holding onto love and all this trust can make a gangsta cry

My daddy tried to kill my mom and never told me why

I watched my mama lay in blood at my youngest eyes

It got traumatized the truth it left me paralyzed

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I know we ain't talk in a minute (ohh)

Listen

I know that our bond keep on shifting

I just wanna go and see the stars in a wraith

Hopefully the money can wash all my pain (ohh)

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I'm just sick and tired of the pretending