Breakdown (Remaster) Lyrics

When we were done, it was such a drain

Making you take up less space inside my brain

But if you asked about me, I'd say I'm fine

Cuz when there's work to do, there isn't time to cry

There's so many things pulling at my attention

Constantly living inside of the tension between

What might be best for you and you and what might be best for me

There's so many people who call on me when their times are tough

So what are they gonna do if I'm not strong enough

Trying my best not to have a breakdown, can't really afford to do that right now

Cuz if I start sobbing in front of a client I might not keep getting paid

I'm trying my best not to have a breakdown, can't really afford to do that right now

So I'll smile a shallow smile and if anyone asks say I'm okay

I understand expressing emotions is important

But next to the problems of the world they seem inconsequential

Like I feel selfish when I get caught up in how I feel

When walking past homeless folx who can't pay for their next meal

Innocent people overseas die when conflict's igniting

The struggle for justice we're tirelessly fighting

Cuz how are we gonna tear this whole racist system down if my sanity's unwound

There's so many people who need me to speak up on their behalf

And their situations won't change if I can't keep it together

Trying my best not to have a breakdown, can't really afford to do that right now

Cuz if I start sobbing on the front lines the bad guys'll make fun of me

I'm trying my best not to have a breakdown, can't really afford to do that right now

So I'll smile a shallow smile and if anyone asks say I'm okay

I can't stop thinking about you

But I wanna stop thinking about you

Cuz it hurts too much to think about you

I don't wanna do the future without you

But the future's still gon' come without you

So I really need to think about you

But there isn't time to think about you

And there won't be if I don't make time now

I don't wanna bawl my eyes out (Don't make time now)

What if they see me as weak now? (Don't make time now)

Excuses feel like walls that are closing in on me

So I'ma take a day (Or more) to feel whatever way so I can finally say

It's okay to have myself a breakdown

Cuz if I'm not taking care of myself I can't be the best me for someone else

It's okay to have myself a breakdown

Not repressing how I feel about you really hurts, but in time I'll be okay