call my bluff (i'm not alright) Lyrics

When I wrote teenage Suicide

No one was by my side

Oh the fact is I wasn't alright

I'm Losing friends cause the dumb shit I'd say

But the good thing is no one died

But almost my sister, that made me cry

Now my sister, she's doing alright

I never helped her, I'm a terrible brother

I picture the way you looked at me before you hated me

I hate these memories

I'm way too tired but I can't get to sleep

And if I take my life you call my bluff, I'm sorry

How are you?

How are you doing this evening?

I should of never started this

I shouldn't of brought it up

I can't hate you any more than I hate myself

I don't wanna live

But I'm afraid to hurt myself

If the pain you cause me is any worse

Than the feeling of death than I wouldn't know what to do

But I graduate in a week

I knew you'd all be mad at me

Cause what if what if

I ruined the surprise and your memories

And that's how you remember me

I'm so sorry

I'm so sorry that I ever contemplated this