Drone Dialogues 4: IOUSA Lyrics

Haunting the air above yr casket

Wafting through the rafters

Is a frigid air moving in delicate waves

You could see yr breath

If you were breathing

But they were all here & I'm still here

Because you're not

You're done breathing

You're done paying bills

You're done driving defensively

You're done folding laundry

You're done masturbating

You're done remembering to take yr pills

You're done loving

You're done making plans

No Heaven

No Hell

Just now, & time away from you

Feels wasted

Can't tear myself away

From yr deathbedside table

Yr memory floating in the

Dead air above the pulpit

A naked body in red light that it cannot feel

Hair cascading like there's a wind from above

Ballard in progress

Because there's nothing there or anywhere

That can answer me

My fingers clasp @ the formless vermillion

Just cold nothing

The body's hair hangs like

The tender boughs of innocence

Sunken low

Groaning under the weight @ their tips

The overripe plums of what could have been

But I failed out of college & moved

Back to my home town

Where you used to visit on holidays & my birthday

13 days before Halloween

I was born on a rainy Thursday morning

What else should you have expected

Water drips from my hair @ the side of yr casket

It rains in my head

Sometimes & I don't know which way is up

I wish you needed me

Like I need you

But you're done needing

The bastard son of bad luck

Now the genderless grandchild that doesn't call

I guess I'm as sorry as I need to be

Inside / outside / USA

Peaches said fuck the pain away