Dead Ladybugs/Head of a Bear Lyrics

I wrote these love letters with the blood of dead ladybugs

Glass half full of liquor red solo cup

Rum in my stomach tar in my lungs I can't control

When I think of you but I know just how to numb it slow

Our relationship was doomed from the start

Cannons crash put holes in Noah's Ark

This is waterloo and I would pull my bones apart

To mend another broken heart

These apples always tasted tart with poisoned roots

What did you expect from only Jokers in my deck of cards

Living large, we should've pressed restart but

Sixteen and naive what did I know

Seven deadly sins put my brain into a hell hole

Two devils ruled the same Hell

Lucifer and Lilith

Borderline mind had a bad habit, distort the image

Using tears to paint the mural of our love but

Nowadays I'm so messed up I'm pouring liquor in my Starbucks but

We look like we're in love but that was only on camera

Fight after fight

I was running out of stamina

When I was 19 I lost control of my anima

I'm just an animal

Take my vital organs throw my body into the marina

Cut the head off of a bear

Spill the entrails out

Blood all over my whip I gotta clean the stains out

Take the kitchen knife into my wrists about to pass out

Then we love so full of hate it fills our whole thoughts with doubt Break the triage souls Become oh so vacant

I spent years trying to change myself for your enslavement

Ticking time bomb left me in the streets forsaken

Apathetic eyes watching from afar just waiting

Doing drugs together maybe could've helped our pain

But I got the addict gene so I always get carried away

All we needed was some time apart to get better

But you didn't trust me enough I couldn't tell you bout the weather

A storm is coming nevermind just sunny days

Which would you rather hear?

That my life is full of pain?

Or a sweet lie to help you sprout your wings and fly

What's the answer matter you were always gonna say goodbye