My Lives Lyrics

As I fall down, and wake up in Hell

It seems to leave me with a glow that I've never felt before

I hope to God and pray you've died

I'm always home, pick up the phone, call me anytime

The rest of everyone has gone and left you to be mine

With the shattering of my lives

There's nothing left, nothing returnable

Your attitude's deplorable

Why is it okay to do

What you said you would never do

Who gave you that right?

Forgiving you would be too kind I would go out of my mind

If I knew how it felt to watch me crawl around and die

With the shattering of my lives

Long ago, when everyone was kind

I fell down the deepest hole I've ever seen in my life

Everything was crashing around me, ain't that right

But you were there, you made it worse

You made the flagpole have bad connotations

Beggars can't be choosers but they can once they have died

With the shattering of my lives

There's nothing left, nothing returnable

Your attitude's deplorable

Why is it okay to do

What you said you would never do

Who gave you that right?

Forgiving you would be too kind I would go out of my mind

If I knew how it felt to watch me crawl around and die

With the shattering of my lives

If a tumor isn't all that bad you shouldn't waste your time

It's the product of a generational gap in cut time

COINTELPRO scowling at the chance to live a night life

Drowning in the darkness of an invisible Highway Mind

You'll never know how badly you hurt me

I can't even say your name out loud

Every time I remember you it makes me sick

How you manipulated me

Made me deny who I was because you said you needed me

The fact that it's years later and I still remember how badly you burned me

And I know the first step to recovery is to acknowledge it

And I've acknowledged it

But I can't progress with how I'm reminded nearly every day

Of the kind of shit you did to have control

It's not worth getting upset about, I think I'm done with that

I just need some self-control, the kind you took from me

It wouldn't even be so bad, but then you insulted me

Assaulted me

There's nothing left, nothing returnable

Your thoughts are uncontrollable

Why is it okay to do

What you said you would never do

Who gave you that right?

Forgiving you would be too kind I would go out of my mind

If I knew how it felt to watch me crawl around and die

With the shattering of my lives