i don't understand. Lyrics

A little boy I am inside still, wishing he were back

Wishing I could tell him how I valued his impact

It won't be in vein, but Lord all this pain

It's hard to focus in, blurred lines make em straight

Feeling off balanced

Tryna use these talents

Missing his support

Embracing his guidance

Tell me why you took him, you say there is a reason

Why we burn under the sun even with spf 50

Either drought or flood, you say it has its season

But honestly I don't see growing thru this quickly

I wanna know why, all of the specifics

You say in time, that doesn't quite sit with

My frame of mind, once raw now is stained

Just wishing once more we could chill over pancakes

I wait

I'll wait

Til we meet again

I'll be missing you dang

I don't understand I don't understand

I can't read your writings on this map

Where'd this turn come from

I didn't see it

For someone who's all truth

You hold a lot of secrets

I don't understand I don't understand

I can't read your writings on this map

Where'd this turn come from

I didn't see it

For someone who's all truth

You hold a lot of secrets

Distracting my mind, off to work I don't wanna

Dwell on the pain that swells like a sauna

Missing that connection, think about it daily

Surrounded by people but alienated

Isolation ain't good for the soul

In long doses, but I don't wanna show

How I really feel, so I act the reel

Conceal all emotion, do not reveal

But that ain't working too well, cuz I know it builds

A tower of frustration that falls and kills

I know I gotta let it out, the cage is rattling

There's a lot of other stuff inside I have been battling

And since he left, I ain't really sure how to handle it

Lord why'd you take him, man i wasn't ready yet

He was mine heaven sent, I was broke he gave me sense (cents)

No he wasn't perfect but I loved him regardless

What am I to do now?! That's two dads gone now

Who gon teach me how to be man when I ain't sure how

Or how to be father or how to fix the sink

Or how to make a budget or how to really be

Who I'm made to be when I'm doubting every moment

See, he believed I had it in me even if he didn't show it

All the time but I remember every time that he did

I wish he was here to one day hold and love on my kids

I miss him

Can you pass that along to him

I miss him

And I can't wait to see him again

I don't understand I don't understand

I can't read your writings on this map

Where'd this turn come from

I didn't see it

For someone who's all truth

You hold a lot of secrets

I don't understand I don't understand

I can't read your writings on this map

Where'd this turn come from

I didn't see it

For someone who's all truth

You hold a lot of secrets

I don't understand i don't understand

I can't read your writings on this map

Where'd this turn come from

I didn't see it

For someone who's all truth

You hold a lot of secrets

I don't understand i don't understand

I can't read your writings on this map

Where'd this turn come from

I didn't see it

For someone who's all truth

You hold a lot of secrets