Had to Let Go Lyrics

Thought I had it all worked out

Body, mind, soul healed

Pulled myself out from low, yeah

No clue where I was to go, no

I did need to heal myself, my trauma

But the days go by

And then days go by, and I can't get them back

Like I want to, even if I tried

I ask, why I had to pass on myself until twenty-two

And my bad, I wore my mask

Thought I was a man until twenty-two

My dad peeled me back

Son, what do you really want to do and why

I don't really want to lose in life, and he says

You better start choosing right

Better start checking how you move in life

You better choose right

Better choose right

Better choose right

Now I had to let go

Of the old me

And I don't know if I'll ever be the same

But that's okay

I'm not scared of change

Pain's what made me this way

Through it all just keep on pushing

For yourself, just keep on looking

Climb on up that mountain

To see the other side

This struggle's got you doubting

Be the one to rise

This pain's got your surrounding

But it's keeping you alive

Looking back, I've been selfish

Looking back, I could not help it

Yeah, I never spoke about the lack of hope

Rope tied by the struggle that I've dealt with

Now I wish I would've told you

And I wish you could've helped me

Yeah, I probably should've shown more

But I folded eventually

Maybe I was empty and codependent

Maybe I was lonely when the show was ending

Maybe I was timid and so sensitive

Not me no more

Not me no more

Now I had to let go

Of the old me

And I don't know if I'll ever be the same

But that's okay

I'm not scared of change

Pain's what made me this way

Through it all just keep on pushing

For yourself, just keep on looking

Climb on up that mountain

To see the other side

This struggle's got you doubting

Be the one to rise

This pain's got your surrounding

But it's keeping you alive