Overthinking Lyrics

I'm always overthinking, I hate the fact I freaking

Can't ever sleep in I don't have your type of normal weekend

My thoughts are always speaking, these demons keep on creeping

Sneaking inside the darkest parts of my heart keeps on tweaking

Feels like my mind keeps leaking secrets that I've been keeping

Away from reaping, but it's time to sow, this field is shrinking

It shows and it's just winking, it knows it's just my weakness

Oh by the way I have you scheduled Wednesday, time to preach man

Look, I've been at it for days

Talking more than 400 running out of the ways

It's more than a phase, you're looking at a beautiful face

That has plenty of scars I can never replace

See I've come so far that I've learned to embrace

Every difficulty so I stay in the race

Stay in my place, just trying to stay in my lane

Standing amazed that I'm still standing these days

I can't wear it on my sleeve cause it shows on my face

And then you think you know me cause you know my mistakes

But when you get to know me, you can see what it takes

To be a father, a husband, a minister running this race

But I keep on running though

I was never known for running slow

Wonder how far I'm gonna go

Wonder how, wonder how gar I'm gonna go, wooh

Well like a hamster

I run the wheel, it keeps spinning faster

Track and field ain't got a chance

Against the thrill that I'm chasing after

Ain't no chill, I'm a be the master

Gotta keep on building fore it wreaks disaster

Gotta keep it real or you'll clean up after

Gonna watch it spill and there will be no laughter, like aye

Why I do I keep thinking this way

Spinning really fast and imma spin it in the grave

Feeling like I'm under all this pressure, my emotions aren't the best

And I don't know if I can see another way

Then I get the notion not to live another day

I'm trying to keep it open but it doesn't go away

You told me just to flow and I don't know if it'll go in my direction

Cause I hold so many questions like I

Can't keep going through these phases

My brain can't keep up with the maintenance

I hate being told just be patient

I'm waiting, ok, I'll be waiting

My day is gonna stay in rotation

Keep playing on my anticipation

I'm banking this ain't a vacation

So basically just go crazy, ok

I'm always overthinking, I hate the fact I freaking

Can't ever sleep in I don't have your type of normal weekend

My thoughts are always speaking, these demons keep on creeping

Sneaking inside the darkest parts of my heart keeps on tweaking

Feels like my mind keeps leaking secrets that I've been keeping

Away from reaping, but it's time to sow, this field is shrinking

It shows and it's just winking, it knows it's just my weakness

Oh by the way I have you scheduled Wednesday, time to preach man

Yeah, look, I ain't scared to die

I live with so many fears like I'm buried alive

But you say I shouldn't fear, well the fear is I

I don't even know who steers in this crazy ride

It's kinda crazy you can hear all these little lies

You can hear so clear like it's magnified

I try to steer clear but they're amped a thousand times

I try to shift gears, stuck, so I compromise, look

I've been feeling like a bomb, bout to tik tik tok

Then boom, like atomic drop

I ain't feeling really bomb

Like when a sick kid coughs in a room and I'm on the clock

Anybody thinking they can do it better

Or they know a better to make em' go away

Make 'em stop, all these thoughts, make 'em stop

All these thoughts, make 'em stop

All of these thoughts are in my brain

And they are not even pertaining to

The issues that I'm slaying do

I issue more time praying through

This darkness that I'm saying dude

This darkness isn't playing, rude

This heart is not ok

I do not offer what I say is true

I do not want to pray

I do not want to stay awake

It does more damage and it breaks me

In a way that I can't take

They say, yo pastor you ok

You got that look up on your face

And in my spirit it says to pray for you

That stuff just me cray

So I go ape and I walk away

So full of anger my whole face

Gets red like danger I ain't praising God

I'm cursing like a sailor

Never said I was a saint

You ain't one either, no debate

I think I need to take a break

I don't need another mistake, let's go

I'm always overthinking, I hate the fact I freaking

Can't ever sleep in I don't have your type of normal weekend

My thoughts are always speaking, these demons keep on creeping

Sneaking inside the darkest parts of my heart keeps on tweaking

Feels like my mind keeps leaking secrets that I've been keeping

Away from reaping, but it's time to sow, this field is shrinking

It shows and it's just winking, it knows it's just my weakness

Oh by the way I have you scheduled Wednesday, time to preach man

Look, I'm a Christian don't

Even get it twisted like it's fictional

I'm dealing my issues so I'm missing bro

Been hiding in my cave so I get to know

The reason why I'm saved, the original

Reason why I'm saved, nothing mystical

Coming back to the basic foundational

Elements of faith, so I break the mold

Break the mold, wait, oh no

See what I'm talking bout, never gets old

Put it in the fire but it's coming back gold

But it's gonna be ok we can take the world

But I gotta find my own pace, imma take it slow

Cause I want to be ok and ok to go

And tell me is it ok? Cause I don't really know, like

Jeremy are you ok? Are you ok, i don't know