My First Apartment Lyrics

Can we talk about

The grief I feel in my first spot

That no one ever talks about

Finally made it out my mamas house

And when the lights go down

I admit that it feels kinda free

On my own

But there's so much that I don't understand

Dancing in my living room all night

With Sade playing in my slides

Kinda wanna laugh wanna cry

Kinda wanna live wanna die

Kinda wanna hold me in the midnight

Dry all of my tears from when I was a child

Kinda wanna understand

What it takes to be who I am

Maybe I'll crash

Maybe I'll burn

Maybe I'll live

Maybe I'll learn

I think I'll understand

What it takes to be who I am

I dont wanna live past eighty

Regretting all the things I didn't say

And I refuse to live and let it past me by

I rather live life in real time

I might make breakfast at midnight

Sometimes I sit in my living room and cry

Cause I don't know why I feel everything

Dancing in my living room all night

With Sade playing in my slides

Kinda wanna laugh wanna cry

Kinda wanna live wanna die

Kinda wanna hold me in the midnight

Dry all of my tears from when I was a child

Kinda wanna understand

What it takes to be who I am

Maybe I'll crash

Maybe I'll burn

Maybe I'll live

Maybe I'll learn

I think I'll understand

What it takes to be who I am

I'm grown

I'm grown

I'm grown

Yes I am grown

I'm grown

I'm grown

I'm grown

Yes I am grown

I'm grown

I'm grown

I'm grown

Yes I am grown

I'm grown

I'm grown

I'm grown

Thank God

I'm grown

I'm grown

Thank God

I feel whole