Time Lost Lyrics

To anybody that's ever been in my circle

I just wanna say that I apologize if I hurt you

Lord willing we can start healing

But I understand if you not willing, no hard feelings

I just gotta get my feelings off my chest, had a lot of things I had to process

Sometimes I thought if I'd just die, everyone could make progress

But I digress, I'm not just, anybody

I'm a Black Man, I'm Toya husband, I'm Jarvis, Jordan, and Brilyn father

I'm Cheryl son, her baby boy, Ron lil bro if y'all didn't know

Been a while since I tapped in, but you forever my nigga tho

We fall out over petty shit, always forgive and forget it tho

Need something, just hit my line, I'll be right there with the pick and roll

Can't make up for that time lost tho

And if time is money I paid the cost yo

Ugh

I was 22 when my Pop's died, I wanted more time, life wasn't fair

Reality is that I had time, and when he needed me, I still wasn't there

He was going through at the hospital he was in and out

When that doctor said he had 6 months, I was in denial, kept living how

I been living, wasn't thinking bout tryna kick it with him, I was trippin out

Like not him, not my Pop's, he a Superhero, he'll figure it out

But he didn't tho, and damn I miss him

And everyday I wish I could go back and do things different

But I can't make up for that time lost, had to wake up and stop dreaming

My girl pregnant, she due in May, that's the motivation I needed

I was going hard with this music shit, so hard I was getting fired from

Every job, something gotta shake, man I swear to God

Insecurities creeping in, how I'm 'sposed to take care of my seed

Can't survive off minimum wage, they deserve much better than me

Relationship already strained, cuz I was doing shows like every night

And I'm in the studio every day, she feel neglected and lead astray

I feel like she not supportive, music is my heartbeat

I feel empty when I'm not recording, why are my needs not important

Now we not on one accord, we so divided

And all the attention I was getting went straight to my head, not surprising

That I'd fuck up a good thing, it was a matter of time

Looking for something I already had at home, but never could find

If I could rewind, I'd take back

Your heart and keep it safe, in fact, I'd put it in a safe that can't be cracked

And your trust I would never break that, but it's too late

The damage is done, you living in pain, I'm feeling the shame, what have I become

Took you awhile to take me back but you can't even look at me now, family putting me down

Every suspicion you getting you throwing the book at me now, wow

This can't be healthy, but it can't be helped

Ain't always about what's real, it's about what's felt

Now I get that, I fucked up, I admit that

And I gotta live with that, not matter the effort I put in to fix that

I can't make up for that lost time tho

And I'm talking to anybody that I've crossed, I take the blame, it's my fault

And I apologize for the pain I've caused yo

And if time is money I paid the cost yo