If I Die Tonight Lyrics

Alright there are some things I need to tell you

Things you didn't understand things I couldn't tell

I am so numb now I don't feel the things

What you gonna do with pain you bring?

I need somebody to come and hold my hand

I have been so dumb I need someone's stand

I am nocturnal Jane sing me songs

You are an enigma that I wanna trust

I don't know if I'm creep if you like me but

Asking for one favor just come for a walk

I have so much to say but nobody to talk

Pages filling fast feelings turning into words

Shivering in long winter draped by the drugs

Starving for the love and world is feeding me tears

My life has got no fire I wish I'm someone's flame

Whenever I say something I feel I'm so lame

I should make more friends says my dad

Yeah I have got many they are all in my head

Man I am getting mad coz everyone is so bad to me

They don't care how I feel I'm not okay you feel me?

Kill me with the one swing don't pretend like you want me

Say it on my face I don't like it when you taunt me

We have been good friends but I'm no fun no more I get it

You don't wanna have me around why don't you just say it?

Yeah I do make mistakes but you just wanna blame me

Whenever life happens you pass it on saying I'm care free

I have been up all night just to find myself

I can't do it myself I'll need someone's help

If I die tonight I'll die broken and left

I can't love myself how will I love someone else?

This things, this things are getting out of my hands now, i need you, I need your help

Save me before it gets too late

The seat next to me in the bus is always free

All I have is anxiety no I don't see no dreams

I've been popping pills to rest my mind and get some sleep

I hope my friends become friends before I get myself killed yeah

Always lying on the bed no but no I don't sleep

Monsters are inside me tell me from whom do I flee?

Yeah I've got depression and I'm walking lonely road

The storm is getting bad and I'm sailing in small boat

They ask me to be happy and to stop overthink

Like I do it deliberately and I don't wanna heal

No I don't wanna share things coz they think that I'm freak

I'm often getting drunk even though I don't like to drink

Yeah I've been hitting clubs and parties still my life is bleak

It's not about the place it's about how they make you feel

My phone is always on coz reel is better than the real

God I'm so alone give this Adam one Eve

I have been up all night just to find myself

I can't do it myself I'll need someone's help

If I die tonight I'll die broken and left

I can't love myself how will I love someone else?