UNIMAGINABLE Lyrics

Couldn't ever imagine her leaving me alone

Now our last words are both set in stone

Couldn't ever imagine him struggling with pills

Now I hear sirens and my skin gets chills

Couldn't ever imagine being afraid of disease

Been inside so long, forgot the feel of a breeze

Used to think I'd make it, now I don't seem so sure

All I got left is some whiskey to pour

Feelings like this always make me feel distance

Between where I am and what I chase with persistence

Take one step forward, then 3 steps back

Took a couple for a headache and I chased it with Jack

Stability can't fulfill me

Thought of it makes me feel guilty

Battling so much stress and I wonder if it'll kill me

Yet I always avoid the topic

Mom carries the house on her back with Moffitt

Had some bad luck, I'm wasting my 9 lives

Lessons came fast and they flew by stop signs

Shrug off concern

Truth is though, I'm not fine

Problems I face are too big for hotlines

Couldn't ever imagine her leaving me alone

Now our last words are both set in stone

Couldn't ever imagine him struggling with pills

Now I hear sirens and my skin gets chills

Couldn't ever imagine being afraid of disease

Been inside so long, forgot the feel of a breeze

Used to think I'd make it, now I don't seem so sure

All I got left is some whiskey to pour

I understand

You going through more than I did

Never had a friend die, or seen death through eyelids

Used to take xans just to calm the war in me

But fentanyl took more lives than Normandy

Believe me, with time they'll forget you

Everyone dies, next step is moving on just to get through

The sudden and impossible pain

Time moves on, it's an unstoppable train

But I'll still be here

Wondering why I couldn't save you

Hearing mom cry while she takes two

From prescriptions, cuz' they slow down the tears

Blaming herself cuz' her son isn't here

Couldn't ever imagine her leaving me alone

Now our last words are both set in stone

Couldn't ever imagine him struggling with pills

Now I hear sirens and my skin gets chills

Couldn't ever imagine being afraid of disease

Been inside so long, forgot the feel of a breeze

Used to think I'd make it, now I don't seem so sure

All I got left is some whiskey to pour

Couldn't ever imagine her leaving me alone

Now our last words are both set in stone

Couldn't ever imagine him struggling with pills

Now I hear sirens and my skin gets chills

Couldn't ever imagine being afraid of disease

Been inside so long, forgot the feel of a breeze

Used to think I'd make it, now I don't seem so sure

All I got left is some whiskey to pour