Outside My Mind (feat. Giant Killa) Lyrics

Outside My Mind (feat. Giant Killa) - Erica Mason

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Outside My Mind

Erica Mason

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Does anybody notice that I'm bleeding

I had to learn to smile through the pain

And everybody says that I'm a great leader

But they don't see the suicidal thoughts on my brain

I've been learning if you let them, people will destroy you

And just because they're with you don't mean they're there for you

Be careful of the ones who quickly adore you

Cuz the moment you ain't popping they quickly ignore you

See I've been breaking under pressure with anxiety

This war inside my mind, Steady shooting all these lies at me

I hate who I've become

I don't even recognize me

They don't even know me

But they're quick to criticize me

Descritely why I'm proud of me, pardon me

Cuz the blood in my arteries

Pumps the pain that hardened me

Pardon me, pardon me

I just need peace,

a little bit of silence

I wonder if anxiety is all about a mindset

I wonder if they ever will acknowledge it's my time yet.

Spend a lot of time writing music that is timeless

Wonder if depression is the reason for our violence

Cuz I know that fear is the reason for our silence

I gotta step outside my mind

Step outside my grind

I put the piece to my mind for some peace of mind

Maybe this time

I'll do it right

I'm tired of the church that won't help me change my life

I'm tired of religion that is making me lose sight

Of the very reason that I got a pen to write

And lately I've been feeling like alot of people lying

How they never seen pain heal over time

And man I need the blood not another simple wine.

So don't ask me how I am if all you wanna hear is fine

Get outside my mind, it's a prison if I let it be

But I know that GOD is the only way I'll find the key

Good times Come when you want it

Bad times just for a moment

I don't even know if they noticed

But why do I feel Soo lonely yeahhh

I gotta get outside my mind,

outside my mind

I gotta get my peace of mind

Outside my mind

Good times Come when you want it

Bad times just for moment

I don't even know if they noticed

But why do I feel Soo lonely yeahhh

I gotta get outside my mind,

outside my mind

I gotta get my peace of mind

Outside my mind

Smiling like there's peace

But inside my heart I'm like woh

Cuz victory always seems hard to reach like I'm at the door

How about seeing red and I slipped and fall on the floor

And I put this knife through my skin

like I can't take it anymore

Like what's the point of running this race if I'm never winning

What's the point of chasing GOD when I'm always sinning

Plus the way I see it... Man we're all his children

So I'm not one in a million

I'm just one in the billions

Looking in the mirror I don't see nothing special

So why would he ever agree to use this vessel?

I'm lost in my thoughts,

Every moment every lapses

And every time I think it

I find my whole world collapses

Is there any way that I can get pass this?

I'm reaching out

Can someone show me where the map is?

Like you ain't see the times I did it right before I backslid

Everytime I think I paid the price

They add the taxes

The only thing between me and the floor

Is the mattress

Only thing that I can give the Lord

Is my baggage

Tricked into thinking it was love by an actress

I've tried time looking weak

But I can't patch this

Don't you see the way that they crack everytime I bend

I'm just hoping somehow that I can win in the end

But is it destined to fail before it even begins

I'll push to the end and we can find out there

Good times Come when you want it

Bad times just for a moment

I don't even know if they noticed

But why do I feel Soo lonely yeahhh

I gotta get outside my mind,

outside my mind

I gotta get my peace of mind

Outside my mind

Good times Come when you want it

Bad times just for moment

I don't even know if they noticed

But why do I feel Soo lonely yeahhh

I gotta get outside my mind,

outside my mind

I gotta get my peace of mind

Outside my mind