Final Speech Lyrics

Look

I don't know what to do anymore

I've watched the people that I hold closest, walk out the door

I've watched my friends careers rising while I stay on the floor

Sometimes I wonder what the fuck I'm even doing this for

Gave up everything I had to a Mental War

I let it win but now it seems it's back for more

I lost some members of my family, it hurt before

But I convinced myself it's their loss, now I try to ignore

But when I look inside the mirror

There's a devil-looking figure

She tells me it's my time to end my life but she's the killer

She tells me that I cannot be a saint cuz I'm a sinner

Angel, why the fuck did you leave? Just check my Twitter

And you'll see I wanna fucking die

Baby girl, there's nothing else I'd rather fucking try

When you're saying you don't love me, look me in the eyes

I refuse to believe you're gonna say goodbye

Bitch, just fucking die

I don't wanna hurt myself

But you're not here so I had to move the pain that I felt

And it's clear that I made a few mistakes when I dealt

But the way you treated me was like a poisonous spell

But of course I couldn't blame you, I was looking for help

I was looking for support and you were struggling yourself

To be honest, all the shit that I was dealing with, compared to what you're dealing with

Was nothing, why I can't say farewell

You have told me many things that made me worry

I know that you can manage but I'd be there in a hurry

If you ever need to hug me

Or tell me that you love me

Or maybe I'm just thinking 'bout the past but it's fuzzy

Every single girl that I have been with had the 'hate you bitch' treatment

But I can't find a reason and that makes you lucky

I've been searching 'cross the country just looking for someone lovely

How the fuck did I end up here with you?

I found it too hard to write this

There is no motivation

I missed the train of love and now I'm hurting at the station

I don't like expectations

They leave me with no patience

And now I find it hard to think, I've lost my concentration

I've travelled 'cross the nation

But this ship has no relation

I knew that we would sink but still, I fought for our creation

And I knew your location

I thought about vacation

If it meant that we could be together, I was racin'

Yeah

Fuck

I swear to god, I've never felt anything like this

It's been fucking shit bro