Ode Lyrics

Callin' this an ode

That would be a stretch

And I won't write an ode

For a thing that

Still isn't over yet

Go

Woulda lost a bet

Will our lives be at all like we thought

Were dreams all an overstep

Old

The older that I get

The thoughts of where we would be now

Are looking like jokes at best

The thing

That I would not predict

Is how grateful I'd be to just breathe

And walk around no longer sick

Grateful for such normal things

Like waking up not full of dread

Unable to get out of bed

Grateful for such boring things

Like driving around a sharp bend

Not wanting go straight ahead

Grateful for such normal things

Like sitting alone with thoughts

And not having to fight them off

Could that be the normal now?

Managing what can't be cured

Was born with me when I was born

Is it really smart

Does it make any sense

Be beholden to the hopes that we had

While looking through a child's lense

Back I knew it all

But it turns out a turn for the worse

Was waiting just outside the hall

Scars

Dug tunnels in the brain

With the knowledge that there will be new ones

Made through my remaining days

Yeah

I guess that is to say

That no matter how hard that I try

I'll end up back in hell sometimes

Grateful for the time I spend

Every second of normal

Is like a blessing that heaven has sent

Changed the way I look at things

After thinking of death as a friend

I see things through a different lense

Who could know what life would bring

So I'm trying to keep it the same

And always take it day by day

One small step and test the ground

If it's solid I'll put down a stake

And keep on building up the house

Everyone needs

A reason to be

Especially those

Who can't seem to see

The point of it all

Where's the green on the grass?

What's the meaning of life?

What's so bad about death?

I couldn't find

One clear reason to live

But that means I'm free

To fill that space in

No purpose to get

Means a purpose to learn

You can go out and find one

While you wait for your turn

Maybe life is a canvas so

And I can just paint my own world