Breaking Down Lyrics

She said I wonder when it'll be my day

Cause I'm not too far from breaking down

And all I got are screams inside

But somehow they come out in a smile

And I'm wondering if I'll always feel this way, this way''

I got this rage up in my mind, but I lock it up inside

Got this pain up in my heart, but you'll never see me cry

I'm not feeling like myself, feeling more like someone else

Feeling different than I could, I'm feeling different than I should

It's a shame, most these days, I stay locked up in my room

I go to sleep to Biggie Smalls, then I sleep into noon

The months are growing dead and the days are getting gloom

When I throw the headphones on, then I feel my heart boom

See music keeps me breathing, yea it keeps me alive

Without it I'd be fucked, no I wouldn't survive

I wouldn't have a drive, and I never woulda strived

To be the best I could, or to really contrive

I turn ideas into feelings, then I turn feelings to songs

Turning scheming to dreaming , turning rights into wrongs

Now my musics doing well, yea it's coming along

I finally stopped searching this is where I belong

'She said I wonder when it'll be my day

Cause I'm not too far from breaking down

And all I got are screams inside

But somehow they come out in a smile

And I'm wondering if I'll always feel this way, this way'

When I write these songs today, It's like an Everyday Battle

See I'm doing what I can, but I'm just living in shadows

I write about my life, and I artistically dabble

While these other artists seem to just simplistically babble

Well I'm sick of being looked at as your Mr. Number 2

Apparently I just exist, The world revolves around you

Where's my number one hit, wheres my "damn you can spit"

Where's my "shit your legit", When is it time to just quit

Do you know how far I've gone, how much time I've commit

Just to hear your music's hot, but it don't quite fit

Do you know why I rap? I rap for revenge

On any motha fucka who said that I can't when I can

I've grown a little bit, I've matured as an artist

I may not be that fast, but I'm going the farthest

I may not be that hard, but I'm rapping the hardest

And I don't rap to attack, see I use it to guard us

And maybe you've fallen down, and maybe you just took the long way home

But baby you could never love you, like me

And one day this will fade away, in the mirror you'll see your smiling face

And standing next to you will always be me, yea me

It's all about the effort and the time you put in

It's all about the writing and the fire you bring

I'm sick of being told that I'm not a real rapper

When I'm sitting in a frame with the photo you captured

I write about the truth and the world that I know

I don't yap about the fame, cause my tracks ain't for show

I feel hotter than hell, and in my eyes I'm a pro

But I know you disagree, you see me zero below

Does anybody hear me cause I'm thinking ya don't

Do you listen to the lyrics, cause I don't think so

Why even be a fan, if you won't hear what I'm saying

If the world don't like my songs, then I'll spit em in heaven

When you tell me I'm no good, your adding fuel to the fire

But that's really good for me because I'm getting inspired

It don't matter what you say or the hate you promote

Cause the rhymes are getting better once they come out the throat

You claim to be something that we all know your not

You try and tell us stories but your changing the plot

Why even bother running, you'll get caught, they're the cops

I saw em throw away the kids once the jail bars were locked

Tell me about those nights you stayed awake

Tell me about those days you hated me

Tell me how you'd rather die alone than being stuck here with me

One day you're gonna see things my way

You gave me so much room that I can breathe