December 4th Lyrics
- Genre:Hip Hop & Rap
- Year of Release:2003
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[ti:2. December 4th]
Shawn Carter was born December 4th
Weighing a 10 pounds 8 ounces
He was the last of my four children
The only one who didn't give me any pain when I gave birth to him
And that's how I knew that he was a special child
They say "They never really miss you 'til you dead or you gone"
So on that note I'm leaving after the song
So you ain’t gotta feel no way about Jay so long
At least let me tell you why I'm this way hold on
I was conceived by Gloria Carter and Adnis Reeves
Who made love under the sycamore tree
Which makes me a more sicker MC and my momma would claim
At 10 pounds when I was born I didn't give her no pain
Although through the years I gave her her fair share
I gave her her first real scare I made up for birth when I got here
She knows my purpose wasn't purpose I ain’t perfect I care
But I feel worthless ‘cause my shirts wasn't matching my gear
Now I'm just scratching the surface
'Cause what's buried under there
Was a kid torn apart once his pop disappeared
I went to school got good grades could behave when I wanted
But I had demons deep inside that would raise when confronted
Shawn was a very shy child growing up
He was into sports and a funny story is at 4
He taught himself how to ride a bike
A two-wheeler at that isn't that special
But I noticed a change in him when me and my husband broke up
Now all the teachers couldn't reach me
And my momma couldn't beat me
Hard enough to match the pain of my pops not seeing me
So with that disdain in my membrane
Got on my pimp game fuck the world my defense came
Then DeHaven introduced me to the game
Spanish Jose introduced me to 'caine I'm a hustler now
My gear is in and I'm in the in-crowd
And all the wavy light-skinned girls is loving me now
My self-esteem went through the roof man I got my swag
Got a Volvo from this girl when her man got bagged
Plus I hit my momma with cash from a show that I had
Supposedly knowing nobody paid Jaz wack-ass
I'm getting ahead of myself by the way I could rap
But that came second to me moving this crack
"Gimme a second I swear" I would say about my rap career
Til '96 came niggas I'm here goodbye
Shawn used to be in the kitchen beating on the table
And rapping until the wee hours of the morning
And then I bought him a boom box
And his sisters and brothers said he would drive them nuts
But that was my way to keep him close to me and out of trouble
Goodbye to the game all the spoils the adrenaline rush
Your blood boils you in the spot knowing cops could rush
And you in a drop you're so easy to touch
No two days are alike except the first and fifteenth pretty much
And "trust" is a word you seldom hear from us
Hustlers we don't sleep we rest one eye up
And the drought will define a man when the well dries up
You learn the worth of water without work
You thirst 'til you die yup
And niggas get tied up for product
And little brothers' ring fingers get cut up
To show mothers they really got 'em
And this was the stress I lived with
'Til I decided to try this rap shit for a living I pray I'm forgiven
For every bad decision I made every sister I played
‘Cause I'm still paranoid to this day
And it's nobody's fault I made the decisions I made
This is the life I chose or rather the life that chose me
If you can't respect that your whole perspective is wack
Maybe you'll love me when I fade to black
If you can't respect that your whole perspective is wack
Maybe you'll love me when I fade to black
Now if you can't respect that your whole perspective is wack
Maybe you'll love me when I fade to black
If you can't respect that your whole perspective is wack
Maybe you'll love me when I fade