relax Lyrics

I'm thinking maybe I should relapse

Maybe that way I could relax

Maybe I'll thrown on a ski mask

Kick down the door I'm taking me back

I'm thinking maybe I should relapse

Maybe that way I could relax

A better me I thought I need that

But in my heart I know I'll never be that

Somedays I just wanna give up

They've done me wrong, I've got these grudges I just tally em up

And when they see me I just smile like I don't give a fuck

But on the inside I keep screaming til my feelings go numb

It sounds unhealthy, found my method for replacing the drugs

And I'm exhausted but won't tell you I'm in need of a hug

I throw myself into relationships, addicted to love

Yet I'm always so surprised they end up pulling the rug

I'm thinking maybe I should relapse

Maybe that way I could relax

Maybe I'll thrown on a ski mask

Kick down the door I'm taking me back

I'm thinking maybe I should relapse

Maybe that way I could relax

A better me I thought I need that

But in my heart I know I'll never be that

Lately I been feeling like an army of one

I got my back against the wall, my choice is shooting em up

I never thought I had these demons, thought I was having fun

But when I whitened up my eyes, I saw the damage I'd done

And to my family, I know they always been my side

I did them wrong for all those years I was evading my eyes

I carry weight for those I hurt back when I was getting high

I don't expect you to forgive me

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But they don't wanna see another one, gone

But I don't think that I could right another wrong

And I keep thinking if I write another song, then I'll belong

They don't wanna see another one, gone

But maybe this was how it ended all along

I kept thinking I just needed to stay strong, where did I go wrong

I'm thinking maybe I should relapse

Maybe that way I could relax

Maybe I'll thrown on a ski mask

Kick down the door I'm taking me back

I'm thinking maybe I should relapse

Maybe that way I could relax

A better me I thought I need that

But in my heart I know I'll never be that

I'm thinking maybe I should relapse

Maybe that way I could relax

A better me I thought I need that

But in my heart I know I'll never be that

I'll never be that, no