codependency Lyrics

Every time that I get low

I used to fix it with a high

I used to meddle with my mind

I used to paint outside the lines

And now I'm sober I don't know

I got no place left to hide

From the toxins left inside

Better off if I just died

My head is spinning like a globe

Eyes are sore from all the crying

Tongue is sore from all the lying

Telling people that I'm fine

I got no place left to go

I been running out of time

I can't find the words to rhyme

Might as well turn out the light

I don't really wanna face the music

I always turn to drugs when I lose it

And I don't like myself when I been using

I feel useless

I don't really wanna face the music

I always turn to drugs when I lose it

And I don't like myself when I been using

Codependency has got me losing

I know that the old me had a purpose

But what's the value if I still feel just as worthless

I got these scars but they're underneath the surface

But if I cannot face them, then I'm doing a disservice

I've lived a lot of life, fought against a lot of strife

Really thought I had a wife, and now I'm back at zero

And maybe I'm too worried bout the zeroes

Let me vent for a minute

Feeling like a loser every second I'm not winning

I wanna be a rapper but my heart just isn't in it

Only really here when life has pushed me to the limit

And got no one else to talk, to

And the silence gets so fraught, oo

Every thing that I've been taught, all times that I've lost

Baby that was just a walkthrough

And that's including when I lost you

And now I sit here feeling lost

Wanna heal the pain without slipping in the sauce

I tried to give my all, without thinking of the cost

Just a few more memories that live here in a box, on my shelf

I don't really wanna face the music

I always turn to drugs when I lose it

And I don't like myself when I been using

I feel useless

I don't really wanna face the music

I always turn to drugs when I lose it

And I don't like myself when I been using

Codependency has got me losing

I don't really wanna face the music

I always turn to drugs when I lose it

And I don't like myself when I been using

I feel useless

I don't really wanna face the music

I always turn to drugs when I lose it

And I don't like myself when I been using

Codependency has got me losing

I don't know

I'm lost