Self Medicate Lyrics

I don't drink but I still know how to self medicate

I don't stay out and party but I still get home way too late

I can sit in the darkness and write out my goals pretending

I'll remember them in the morning when I wake

What a funny little life

I lie and say I'm happy when I've had a really bad day

I laugh with a smile when I just want to stay away

But if one bad habit can make your life a mess

Then why do I feel like this

I'm trying my best

I wanna be your perfect ray of sun

I wanna be your number one

The one you call and make your dreams about

When you're lying at home in your bed

I'm trying my best

But it's never enough

I'm never enough

Ah ah, oh

Ah ah, oh

What is it that makes you taste so bitter on my tongue?

What is it that makes me wanna scream I hate you

And everything you do

When I know it's not the truth

What is it about you

That makes me want you

I wanna be your perfect ray of sun

I wanna be your number one

The one you call and make your dreams about

When you're lying at home in your bed

I'm trying my best

But it's never enough

I should be enough

I should be enough

I should be enough

Why am I not enough?

I should be enough

I should be enough