Utility Lyrics

Places they'd rather be

People they would rather meet

Always eyeing an instant rush

Not caring about who they crush

It doesn't matter how long I wait

I'll never match the high they crave

I'll sit in whatever to avoid a fight

And later they'll tell me something nice like:

"Oh, I found a place for you

When other plans have fallen through

Between easier times with different friends and browsing websites with no end

When I am feeling down

And I don't want my usual crowd around

Your patience and effort brings me up

And after that, you can shut up"

I feel like a less loved Giving Tree

You've taken what you need from me

And now your hunger craves newer things

People grinding for that zing

Time with me feels like a chore

An obstacle you should ignore

I still want to give endless energy

But it feels like what you think of me is like:

"Oh, I found a place for you

When other plans have fallen through

Between easier times with different friends and browsing websites with no end

When I am feeling down

And I don't want my usual crowd around

Your patience and effort brings me up

After that, you can shut up"

I hope I won't stop nurturing

I wanna help and feed forever

But what if every selfish hit I take is training me to stop?

I don't wanna be like you

But what's the point of being me?

I'm embarrassing everyone else and myself

I hate the existence of health

I'm glad you found a place for me

It hurts but it gives you room to breathe

Room to run and room to grow

I'll love you forever--I hope you know

When you are feeling down

And you don't want your usual crowd around

I'll hope I'll have more heart to spare

You need to know that someone cares