If I fall ft. No name productions Lyrics

If I fall

Can you pull me up

Is it true how it all turned out

And when I'm tired

Do you lay down with me

in my head so I can sleep

Without you

Fuck I need a break

Feels like my body is about ready to break

I try so hard to make things good

But ain't no point when I keep fucking up

And I'm not good at showing love

I'm no good at trust

There was a time when I was

But that changed now I can't trust no one

I'm empty and broken what is the point

Everybody tells me I'm a good person and keep on going

But they don't understand the pain

And the thoughts that go through my head everyday

There's no point

so I sit down and roll up this joint

Nobody ever hit me up

So I don't give a fuck

Put it in a song hoping it help it

They say alcohol helps the pain and numbs it

But that's a Damn lie

I be feeling the same all the damn time

If I fall

Can you pull me up

Is it true how it all turned out

And when I'm tired

Do you lay down with me

in my head so I can sleep

Without you

I wanna know what it'll be like if I didn't fuck

Everything up

I wanna know what it'll be like to feel loved

I wanna know why my mom gave me up

I wanna know why she turned the drugs

Why she's done everything she's done

So many things that I wanna know

That I wanna get answers to

Was I not a good enough kid

Am I not good enough now

How come everyone I love walks out

I just wanna be meant for someone and settle down

I've been tryna live right

I've been living a lonely life

I've been sleeping here instead

I've been sleeping in my bed

Fighting demons in my head

I use to be that nice kid with a big heart

But now I don't know where I belong

I don't know where I went wrong

I put on a fake smile

I've been tryna stay positive

But inside I feel the opposite

I've been fighting depression

I'm doing my best not to show it

I try to cover it up with a lie

I'm tired and high

I be holding back tears all the time

I don't want no one to get close to me

If I fall

Can you pull me up

Is it true how it all turned out

And when I'm tired

Do you lay down with me

in my head so I can sleep

Without you