hurting myself ft. aftrr! Lyrics

I hate when I'm upset

Gotta' pick if I do or die, shit

It's fine cause I already slit my wrists

Baby, this too hard to make my mind

I can't decide if I want to die

(Oh)

(Wanna' die)

(Mmm, wanna' die)

(I don't know if I really want to die)

No, I can't control myself

I tied my head across my belt

I hurt myself to make you stare my way

What's there to say?

Baby, I love you

Baby, I love you

Baby, I love you

Baby, I love you

You know I can't get back with you

The times we had

I'm losing my mind

I'm losing my mind for shit we never had

I said I can't fall for you again

What happened to all my friends?

My life don't feel real no more, I'm not a fan

Drugs make me feel so numb, my arms are dead

I feel so dead

My heart is dead

You up and left

Took all pain

Left it unsaid

What I said

Messages on read

No, I'm not tryna' give my best any more

Don't care if I make a mess anymore

Expect -

Baby, it hurts just like the rest

I don't want to talk, just to feel something real

I don't wanna hurt but it's all I can feel

Heart in the dirt, body in a hearse

Play my cards right, I'mma take this damn pill

Oh, oh, I don't want to do this no more

Feel so ruthless, so clueless

Break it down, down to my core