If I Die Before I Wake Lyrics

Now I lay me down to sleep,

I prayed the lord my soul to keep

If I should die before I wake, I pray the lord my soul to take

Sold my soul to the devil, I don't think I can help it

What soul? Exactly, I think the devil was selfish

Didn't even make a deal, all he did was take it

Wanna be like Ricky Bobby, shake and bake it

Talladega, the nights are so lonely, can't even wake up without losing a homie

Moved to a new place, the streets don't know me, but I swear they will at any given time

As soon as I drop this next rhyme, it's like I'm driven by the thought of me crossing the finish line

I'm slipping and stumbling, my stomach is ripping and rumbling

My final straw is cut short while I'm sitting in the ambulance

All because of the pills I was swallowing

It's as if I can hear the voice of my guardian angel and she was calling me

But in reality it was my ma's voice and she was saying, get up, come on you got a choice

I tried my hardest but didn't even budge

To be completely honest, I didn't give a fuck

No going back to poverty, cause that shit really sucked

While they're trying to revive me, doing their sternum rubs

And I just kept on repeating to myself, saying

Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the lord my soul to keep

If I should die before I wake, I pray the lord my soul to take

I could hear my siblings crying and laying on my chest

Then the machines flatlined and suddenly a breath escaped me

As I was resting in the bed, almost as if I was ready for death

Until a switch flipped up in my head

I started to shake, the withdrawals were starting to take my fucking life away

I told my demons to lay me in my father's grave

Then I began to wake and I saw them crowded around me

It wasn't my demons, it was my fucking family

They gave me a smile and said that they were glad that I'm alive

I told them from this day forward I could never die

But I knew it was false and it happened again

Then my family switched up on me and so did my friends

But the real ones stayed close, which is why I chose speed it up a little bit

To give up on the drugs that were killing me slow

Seriously though, I'm starting a new chapter so I flipped a page

And wrote down my feelings that led to this stage of the pain and rage

Locked in a cage in my brain, I need to let it all out before it drains me

So in this moment I'm freezing frozen like I slashed my own wrist

And I'm soaked in my blood, no glove, no love

That's why I stay protected. Damn, okay, I'm done

Now I lay me down to sleep

I pray to Lord my soul to keep

If I should die before I wake

I pray to Lord my soul to take

Now I lay me down to sleep

I pray to Lord my soul to keep

If I should die before I wake

I pray to Lord my soul to take

If I die before I wake, lay me in my father's grave

No, my soul cannot be claimed

I speak to my demons, I guess they're tamed

Like an unborn fetus when it's flushed down the drain

After you ask it if it can hang

Like damn, this beat was slayed

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