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On the surface, you never really said that I was worth it

I hid inside my room and you observed it

I never told you I wanted to burn it down

So I just folded, the fire got to me and I exploded

Got locked inside a cell while I was broken

Looking back, I should've fucking wrote this down

You wouldn't believe me if I told you all

Or you would say that it's all my fault

You don't need a reason, I'm nothing at all

Been climbing these mountains way too tall

For certain, I can't even be a better person

Couldn't even tell that I was hurting

Told myself I'm fine and it all worsened, oh

Searching, made me fucking feel like I'm a burden

For twenty years I've lived behind a curtain

Don't tell me how it is and how it all went down

I don't wanna focus on the thought of being enemies

I know I said I hate you but looking back, man, I hated me

I bite my lip and hold my tongue just thinking what you said to me

I'll fight them all, I'll fight them all but I won't win to jealousy

I've been falling down because I can't control these memories

Time is moving way too slow, a second's like a century

Been running out of gas so I've been running out of energy

Oh, I can't close my eyes because the things that I will never see

You wouldn't believe me if I told you all

Or you would say that it's all my fault

You don't need a reason, I'm nothing at all

Been climbing these mountains way too tall

For certain, I can't even be a better person

Couldn't even tell that I was hurting

Told myself I'm fine and it all worsened, oh

Searching, made me fucking feel like I'm a burden

For twenty years I've hid behind a curtain

Don't tell me how it is and how it all went down

Go

Wait, Momma does the countdown

No, I wanna do the countdown,

5, 4

No I wanna do it, 3, 2, 1, go

Okay

Go

Where's the countdown?

5, 4, 3, 2, 1, go

Oh jeez

I'm gonna get that kid

I'm gonna get him

I'm gonna get him

I'm gonna get him

I'm gonna get him

I'm gonna get dada

I'm gonna get him oh

Oh he's down, ah

You made me, you made me fall

I didn't make you fall, you fell