willyoulovemeifistillcantopenup? Lyrics

Ok so I

Needa find help but idk know if it'll matter

Tear and shred my heart to pieces fucking put it on a platter

Will it really matter if I shed a tear or hold out my hand

Will it really matter if I open up cause I fucking can't

What will it change

I just continue to degrade

Curled up in a ball

Will it protect me from the fall

Idk at all

I've exhausted all my calls

All in all I'll end in fall

Watch as I drop to the ground as the leaves change

I guess I'll just keep going and going

Like I'm running at the track team

I can't breathe

I need oxygen and a oxy

I'll just wait for you to call me

Sat passed out here on the rug

I want a hug

Will you love me if I still can't open up

Will you love me if I still can't open up

Will you love me if I still can't open up

Open up

Will you love me if I still can't open up

Cause I don't wanna find help

But I know that I need to

After all I said

I'd be such a hypocrite to end up dead

I'm just fucking fed up with the pain and disarray

I'm just tryna make it to May

Just tryna not drink every day

Just tryna open up and not say I don't give a fuck

Quickly running out of luck

Things never go my way

And I guess that's ok

I just have to deal and cope

I just have to let people in

I just have to use all my new healthy habits

And get rid of the bad ones