flowers Lyrics

I got my flowers by twenty one

'Cause I got nothing but sober In my baggage

It's now more easier to manage what used to damage

From the first pill of the ambien

To the twenty two pills I swallowed

Wasn't feeling so bien

Wasn't feeling so sane

They looked at my brain

They asked why did I do that

Like what did I have to gain

For all of this pain and depression

I'm feeling the pressure

I stare my reflection

I just see another dimension

I'm begging to die before this Is written

Is this a love letter or my last latter

I'm a complex soul

I have sin there Is no heart so there Is no whole

I fill my Insides with pills for what was robbed or stole

We talking about how much changed In a year

I have my life balanced I'm riding the steer

Went through ups and downs that's the thrill

I should say chill and relax

Like the melatonin through the motion

I was lovin' throwin', blowin' money

That's a cry for help I was pourin'

But the only thing pouring was my blood

I was hungry but In the skies I was floatin'

They say nicotine kills so I go for melatonin

All of a sudden this Is more than addiction

Back to back to controlling

What I called addiction

Can't hold me In place like my feelings

They change through the seasons 'cause ambition

They say music Is art I say my music are paintings

From Misery in the beauty to Perception, greetings

I had to go through hell let go of my grievance

They judged the old me like I used to too

Thought my albums were cheap as If they had no value

To realize the problem Is that I'm the Issue

Had to look real hard into the scope to look through

Hated myself so much

I was cutting

I was flooding

I was running

I was struggling

Yet they say the easiest way to die Is loving

Then the death must be lovin' me

'Cause they don't stop killing my friends for me to continue suffering

But the angels sing with me when I'm burning

'Cause they hear that I'm hurting

Losing my best friend and I turned to a mad man

I couldn't even stand what I did to those that hurt one of my own

I still see my white wings but half of em' dark like they're hunting

Grim reaper can feel me crumbling they're always judging

Why I'm always rushing to fucking trusting others that are sleeping on me

That'll never be coming to my funeral

'Cause they' tired of all of my preaching

Damn, that must be a reach 'cause I'm reaching

Yet angels, they see I'm always searching, always learning

Till I find what I'm yearning the only thing turnin' is how I'm serving

With the way that I function I'm always up late at night working

'Cause as I said In my album I'm bipolar like Texas

Precious but menace when I rap to all of these ghost

Whenever I roast I see right through em'

Noticing all of the lies 'cause I've been sober on em'

See the devil on my right shoulder turns to an angel on em'

Now my pen Is a dozen times brighter on my stem

Yea

Y'all used to relate when I was depressed and trapped

But now those that hear me In radio understand

So much radio play I'll be stan myself

Confidence I've arrived 'cause I know myself more than you do yourself

Care more about my health than the wealth

I used to say my albums must be cheap 'cause I have no value

But the only thing lacking Is mentality that I didn't pursue

Wasted so much time arguing with myself to find my rescue

In the venues that I'll rap In to help me and you too

So here take your flowers for growing and changing

'Cause you and I wouldn't be who we are today

If It weren't for what happened to us

It Is indeed a must

To let the dust settle

'Cause the past Is a place of reference

Not a place of residence

Bryan Kings, out