photograph Lyrics

Holding on to you when my time runs out

We'll be in a different story

Watching over you, even when I'm gone

It's not my fault but I'm still sorry

It's a long way, but you're gonna laugh

Like you used to when I took this photograph

I will fade away when the sun goes down

You're not alone cause I'll be holding on

Dear Mom, I don't know how to start this

I got too many demons hiding under the carpets

I got too many reasons to give up but I started off full of hope

and I'm trying to recapture

All the feelings that I had when I was five

Mixed up with the consciousness I gained when you died

I don't think I questioned why,

I just wanted more time to talk to you,

so you'd tell me and explain what it's like

Do you know how it feels to love someone so much

That even when they're gone, you feel the love and it burns?

Knowing you would love them over anybody else

And that you'll never tell 'em just how grateful you felt and still do

I wish I met the real you, Mom

Helped care for my bro, did my best, I think you could see

Sat next to his bed, read him stories

and did that same noise with the toys you used to do with me

Holding on to you when my time runs out

We'll be in a different story

Watching over you, even when I'm gone

It's not my fault but I'm still sorry

It's a long way, but you're gonna laugh

Like you used to when I took this photograph

I will fade away when the sun goes down

You're not alone cause I'll be holding on

It's fucked up to think if I was this age then

Maybe I could've helped or even saved

damn

I don't even let myself think about it like that

Maybe insecurities come from how you left like that

But I love you too much to ever drop down the fight path

It was hard for me, you're right

I could only imagine how it was for my dad

But I love my past

Dark times made me better than I asked

It's fine, I just needed to vent

I rose through life, I can do it again

And the roses I brought you last birthday

I hope you like white, still, you know my intent

No, I ain't gonna pretend I don't wish you were alive (no)

But if you were I probably would have never touched a mic (mic)

There were times that I prayed, lost you and myself along the way

But I'm no longer afraid, I can almost hear you say

Holding on to you when my time runs out

We'll be in a different story

Watching over you, even when I'm gone

It's not my fault but I'm still sorry

It's a long way, but you're gonna laugh

Like you used to when I took this photograph

I will fade away when the sun goes down

You're not alone cause I'll be holding on