it really just gets worse // DEJECTED Lyrics

"And 40's are older than I ever want to be"

It's never what it seems, man, just know that

Not, in like a good way, or in a bad way, just is what it is

Yo, but it's never what it seems

Uh-huh

They say "It just gets better!", I say "It just gets worse."

They say "Keep your head up!", I say "That's not how this works."

They say "It's not for forever", I say "But forever I'm cursed."

To be at debt to this earth

I look for blessings and worth, but slack off then it's mask on

Like Voorhees, vortices vortex, till the past gone

And future, I can predict by momentum, of the current moment

How monumental are your motions?

Mo' then, what I have now, what I seek to search out, Have I peaked and burned out?

Or is my flame gon' turn out to bonfire and bring together

The night critters with sights bigger for times better

But lost timber, so might shiver, come grab a sweater

It's all out of Goodwill, ego death, more or less

Myself killed for the sake of seeing

The macrocosmic picture

Mad cause most scoff at what seems odd

So often I'm not siding with em

Just gotta be real, man

It's not out of hate or love

It just is, you know

And this is, letting what is, go

Only way to change what will be...

Dejected, perfecting the message, don't let it, define the present

Dying on my own sword

You decide if I was peasant, cause life

Def ain't great but it can be pleasant

At best, it's just a second of warmth

To reside inside a sun setting

Certainly sounds like the ending I wish would form

But even in my final, know I'll still be torn

Storin' storms, suicidal scenes playing out

Sorry, I really tried to make it out

Felt like trash and moms kept telling me to take it out

I really don't even feel hatred now

Numbed up, done with the dumb stuff

Go silent when she asks "What's up?

How come you ain't never stick around?"

Say I'm stuck up too

But I'm the one who always held us down

Nothing new, clear we've been falling out

For some time now

Toxic traits taking tolls

I need a time out

Know it takes two to keep smooth through the turbulence

But all I've felt is dejection and worthlessness