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I don't know how you feel on this day

I only know how I feel at 31

My heart is breaking in the context of things

That are and are yet to come

It's been difficult for longer than I had hoped

And I'd much rather give up on hoping

But survival is dependent on the faith

That moves towards light and healing

I'm deeply sorry that I did not do enough

To break the hold of disappointment

Don't want another year not yet seeing

Or getting by with a faith that's been broken

I resent the house on the rock that I built

I assumed she would come pre-furnished

Filled with people, music and love

But common sense: when I moved in, she was barren

My lover and ghosts of those to come live with me

Sing over myself the truths I now know

Wish doing the right thing guaranteed success

In the ways of heaven and the world

If there's one good thing I remind myself

Your broken faith was finally restored

In the midst of all that's weighed me down

Energy is not created nor destroyed