All Or Nothing Lyrics

It's that time

Okay

Moment of clarity from my chest

I got issues that were unaddressed

Put my ass into one big mess

Pieces from my inner growth, I guess

Picture me pressing up CDs

Yeye seeing stars from her son at nineteen

Friends saying you gon' be the next big thing

You believe it while you chase a dream

College wasn't really my thing

My father wanted me to have a college degree

Compton was his home, wanted more for me

I couldn't face him, when I said I had to leave

I said I had to leave

Trust me, then we'd rarely even speak

He didn't know what I really wanna be

But I trust these instincts

I know I signed up for the long game

I know it's fucked up in the rap game

But I had this inner voice that would light my way

I was tired of being broke with my thrifted Js

Years passed me by

Nothing came my way

Except failed business plans every night and day

Stuck in a four by eight

Making beats all day

Watching peers blow up while i'm sitting in place

Meanwhile, I ain't even answer calls from my family to chase this chase

While the years passed by and nothing still ain't changed

Doing Pomona shows for fame

Whipping an 04 Honda down Beverly way

Thinking patience been part of the game

While I'm in Comfort Inn writing raps on a shattered iPhone and a paper tray

For real

And it just keeps on going

Workaholic and an alcoholic

Bad combination

Mix that with the women that I seem to stay with

They love me then they hate me on a rotation

Afraid to commit yet I'm quick to bases

Playing mind games yet I truly hate it

I truly hate it

I always do it and I truly hate it

But I know my intentions stays genuine

Had trauma as a kid from the age of nine

Saw my relatives divorce or they'd fuss and fight

That made me really overthink of my wedding time

My dad divorced two women throughout his lifetime

My mother had trouble finding the right guy

I got this music career to make mine

So i've been losing all these women just to make time

Thoughts of my unborn children haunt me to this day

I just want to bring hope and a future where they got it made

Is that okay?

That's why I'm thankful for the ones who uplift me in my circle

From Tukes to Kaine to Shorter to Kris to Meli

Kevin and both of the Hel brothers

I'm grateful

From David to Matt to Phoenix to Yelle

Eloise

Abe

Bender

I'm grateful

To all my friends, I'm grateful

And to my blood, I'm grateful

For the woman fallen out my life

I'll still love you till the day I die

That's an oath from a tie that binds

Aye

Right

Sacrificed time for the spotlight

Couldn't count on all my hustles through the moonlight

Dark as it was, I had foresight

Couldn't tell you why I wasn't doing things right

Your brothers looked at me to shine bright

Nah, I ain't finna stop on a green light

Man, you watched me grow into a young knight

Despite me grinding while your texts shined

You loved me unconditional

I hope you hear this in the afterlife

Madeline knows her baby always gotta grind

Coming straight out of Compton onto West Vine

Tell Uncle Terry he's my idol

A role model when I'm on the mic

Tell my older cousin Mark that I need his light

My older brother overlooking standing by my side

That's right

I know I didn't call when you tried to ring

I know I didn't text you when my phone rang

I know I stayed distant through the peak of things

Now I ask Daeshanay for forgiveness

God, I hope that she's listening

Went to her funeral, and damn, you and I spent that day sharing tears

Man, I can't lie

We can't turn back from a hand of time

You've been an angel in the starlight

I wasn't at your funeral to say goodbye

Selfishly chasing dreams, out my damn mind

To this day, I regret it

All these memories i'll treasure

I dedicate this to you

Dedicated to Netta

I think you're very strong

And I know you're strong

Because most people would've folded

You know, they probably would've given up

Or got a lot of hate coming out of their mouth

I don't hear that when you talk

You're- that's why there's a lot more to you

I have not heard that

So therefore, I have confidence

That's why I said I know God loves you

And he has his hands on you

So I- you encourage me

You have to continue

That's what I tell God

And that I want to be here

And I hope I see you one day

With a CD or DVD or on TV

That's what I think

And I want you to know that I love you

I've always loved you, Eli