this wretched body Lyrics

I've spent my whole life

Running away from myself

Long nights and white lies

I was neglecting my health

Now I have this wretched body

A fractured heart with things that haunt me

Where were you when I was screaming

I could've sworn the world could hear me

I don't feel like the same person I look at

In all the family pictures

And hear in stories told at the dinner table

Or maybe I just don't want to be her

I feel so ashamed to even think about

Leaving that little girl on her own

When I was all she ever had

If only she knew that now, she's all I have

When she was hurting

She would write me songs for when I'm hurting

I still listen to those voice memos

And cry every time I hear her pain

She taught me how to be brave and authentic

All she ever wanted was someone to listen

If only she could have felt the love

And understanding that I feel for her now

To this day, I still hear her