Nervous Breakdown Lyrics

Please don't tell me to calm down

Turn my frown upside down

Bullshit you tell me when I'm wound

Nervous breakdown making me drown

And all you want to say is calm down

Have a water and jot down

My emotions in a journal

Write all the shit that is internal

No therapy this ain't normal

The darkness is sempiternal

Stuck with me it's eternal

All this shit feel infernal

Momma telling me to go to sleep

But my sense of time is fucked, I'm nocturnal

Wish I weren't on the deepest vibe

Feeling weak of mind and sleep deprived

I became a beast but I wasnt a decent guy,

atleast I tried

I'm the only reason I would wanna leave your side

We don't really need to fight

Man I'm sick of all this self hate

Looking back while I'm sitting in this hellscape

Hey Ryan I really miss you

And I really need your help mate

But you had to stay away from me

Guess your mother taught you well

But fuck that bitch mate

Apologies, excuse me but the bitterness consumed me

I just stupidly assumed that you would never choose to lose me

Thought we was bestfriends

But that thought just abuse me

All while you mother didnt lose sleep

I'm past pretence, I'll never be your brother or just your friend shit

I'm just praying that you safe

And that her darkness don't infect you

I was a demon in the house

How my family just got over it I don't know

I know I won't cope

Tryna spit a million lyrics on this nervous breakdown situation

I don't wanna die and leave my family behind

But I don't wanna live a live just being angry and depressed

And full of sadness and regret

I hope I handle this the best

Because all this shit been blocking out my sun

All I'm tryna do is be a good son

But these thoughts are too intrusive

I've fought em but it's useless

To you it's probably stupid that I've put em all to music

But when I try to ignore it them I'm awful it's abusive

Please don't tell me to calm down

Turn my frown upside down

Bullshit you tell me when I'm wound

Nervous breakdown making me drown

And all you want to say is calm down

Have a water and jot down

My emotions in a journal

Write all the shit that is internal

No therapy this aint normal

The darkness is sempiternal

Stuck with me its eternal

All this shit feel infernal

Momma telling me to go to sleep

But my sense of time is fucked I'm nocturnal