Losing Myself Lyrics

It's like I'm losing myself, I'm turning L's into lessons I ain't eager to help

You call it selfish, I call it tired of giving I didn't receive help when I was bruising myself

I celebrated all my adult years when I was only twelve

I'm a skinny kid, but heart matured and slowly dealt

Dealt with all the pain inside, so every time I write

It's not to cry for sympathy but rather aim to change a life

It could be one of you, but truth is deeper than rap

Pains a fever, many side effects a fever can have

Hypocritical for saying this, but people need to put GOD first, it would stop hurt

For me, I try and I'm surprised about the blessings a believer can have

It's not always about losing your way

It's more about the way you fight and try procedure it back

Beating pain is such a dream only a dreamer can have

My dream is now reality and that reality is a dream

My view is a black screen, even galleries can't see

Cause I'm my only optician, my view is so prescribed

To my own eyes, so my capacity is peak

I thrive, and I'm like Steve Winwood

But I don't need Valerie over cause my own truth arrived

You got a calorie deficit, I'm in need of a deficit

For pain, getting rid of pain is one way I can thrive

A home is only four walls when love decides to go

But if the love was never there then I relate to being homeless

And if escaping pain is narrow, you feel in your marrow

In your bones but in a dome, you're feeling hopeless

My culture's not your costume, cause it'll cost you

My culture is my truth and I would dare to see your boldness

I'm on a flight to be at top in my position

I'll do it with no help or the service of a hostess

Right now I'm uncomfortable, you see

I'm aiming to be comfortable

But comfortability can't turn into greed

It's the humbleness instilled in me, was born as an original

I mean originally, I was faking my sleep

My necks cramped in people's yards, like I'm in it deep

But me, I'm hypocritical I'm meant to keep it, humble

Cause I know that people had it way worse than me

If I'm in need of help, and you're in need of help too

I'll try my best to reach you and assist you, I'll stretch an arm

I may not be able to hold a hand

But I get it when you do and there's no point of putting up a palm

I'll still try and touch a finger if it means that I can

Put my shit aside and be of use so I can help a calm

I grew up in a place that I call hell

I know many flipping people who be tapped but they were such a calm

Soul that faces trouble, so their anger is misunderstood

When pennies are a need, you're asking people who come up good

Heartless people act like they're above and you're underfoot

I had a hole in my shoes, my mother understood

Staff in school are telling me, this uniform ain't it

I couldn't buy the formal shoes, but they don't get if I could I would

Life can push u down, but you're the the who gotta pull up

I been there and I done it, now I walk on the foot I stood

Break my flipping axel, but knowing me

I don't stop because I'm still gonna be steering

My pain was at the highest grade, I ain't one to fail

I didn't go to uni through the help of any clearing

People wanna show stacks and brag

I'll buy my baby diamonds and they're shining, so they're bright in all her earrings

There's no connection when it's coming to love

Like a Bluetooth device, so there's a process to get pairing

And rich is not money cause rich is mindset

You're on the phone to a lover, that's where your mind rests

You're hanging up and now you're looking at the hours

Hours went by, and you try figure where the time went

You try figure where the time went

But that's the hope you got in love you think you might get