Now I Know Lyrics

I swear it's funny how it goes

Looking back with all I know

I'd still relive every low

'Came essential to my growth, but

Tell me that back when I was at my lowest

Wouldn't hear it, I was empty, I was soulless

Yeah life was dim, I was trapped in my mind

Was lonely all the time, and my thoughts were not kind

Just stuck on rewind, obsessed with passed time

I left behind

I used to feel jaded

I used be gated

I used to be faded all god damn day

I used be hating

The man in the mirror

Felt nothing but fear, shame, disgust for me

I was battling demons inside my mind cause my shadow contained my pain

Was constraining my inner child, no affection that could remain

A perfection I can't obtain and connections I can't maintain

Just reflections while looking at who I became

But I used to get faded everyday to cope

I was high and sedated didn't have no hope

Always lonely and hated by myself so low low low low

But now I know

That this life is game, yeah it is all a joke

You don't live it you play it, take control and go

Give a fuck if you hate me, I don't care no more no more oh

Now I know oh oh oh

Life be different nowadays

I don't care what they be thinking

I don't care about their praise

I ain't crippled by anxiety

Depressed and hating me

I ain't tripping when it's grey

I just wake up and I play

Now when they hate on me

It don't be facing me

Be motivating me

Feel like they be praising me

It validate me

Knowing that they hate me

Show me what I'm making got them fearing for their safety

I'm just feeling grateful I made it to where I'm at

Ain't forgotten where I came from, I'm dying 'fore turning back

I was haunted by my shadow, my soul was darker than black

Thought my value was determined by others and what I lack

Now I know that I am worth it, my mental became my wealth

It's okay if I ain't perfect, don't need to be someone else

Went from lonely, suicidal, not caring about my health

To somebody that can say "I love myself"

But I used to get faded everyday to cope

I was high and sedated didn't have no hope

Always lonely and hated by myself so low low low low

But now I know

That this life is game, yeah it is all a joke

You don't live it you play it, take control and go

Give a fuck if you hate me, I don't care no more no more oh

Now I know oh oh oh

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I used to get faded everyday to cope

I was high and sedated didn't have no hope

Always lonely and hated by myself so low low low low

But now I know

That this life is game, yeah it is all a joke

You don't live it you play it, take control and go

Give a fuck if you hate me, I don't care no more no more oh

Now I know oh oh oh