C. ruderalis (Why can't we go back?) ft. randombrownkid. Lyrics

The only way we meet is through the shoes on my feet

And everything is murky, I cant feel complete

No, I don't wanna compete (no way)

This solitude has left me feeling heartfelt defeat

My momma says there's more to life but I can't change the deceased

I hold my body up as though it's my own casket

Goin through the motions like I ain't no basket

Case you cant recall, I've taken one too many falls

I shoulda stayed down

If dying meant you'd live again id pop a pill and skip town

I'm off now (out)

Regaining all this space, I've been delivered from grace

And no, I cant forget, I got these scars on my face

Trapped inside my head I'm just trynna find my maya

I cant tell if I'm insane or just a little psycho

Cant relate to bates, but ill be damned if I ain't hollow

Guess that I was trippin, then

But I cant go and blame the blotter

Picked up foster wallace realize that this is water

Mindfulness is easy when I'm mindful to support her

I conceal my fragility, depressive disorders

This my last quarter, imma toss it in the ether

Yo, I tried to make a wish, but wishes didn't want me either

Callous and exhausted

I could use a breather

The only things I've left of them are memories and sneakers

Dodging all the tweakers

And the creatures

Feel 'em crawlin

Feel 'em fuckin' clawin at my feet like fuckin reapers

I cant follow no procedure, I ain't bout to follow leaders