Thinking to myself Lyrics

Damn

Let's get this

All this pain in my head I was thinking to myself

Am I gonna make it or be another to fail

Girls wanna chase it cuz they see that I'm real

But I ain't thinking that basic I just want the dollar bills

All this pain in my head I was thinking to myself

Am I gonna make it to be another to fail

Girls wanna chase it cuz they see that I'm real

But I ain't thinking that basic I just want the dollar bills

Smoking all the time to the sounds of myself

Am I living through these lies that I think will be a help

Cuz truth is sometimes I don't know how I dealt

Girls want my attention but I can't give it to myself

I don't care if I mention I'm just in it for the wealth

I'm never well rested thinking about how it felt

To live in directions that led me to this hell

Sometimes I'm a different person than what I wanna sell

Cuz inside I was hurting tryna discover what's real

Like why'd I give my soul just to make a dollar bill

I couldn't let it go, rap is forever and still

I want my story told, nothing left to be concealed

I don't wanna grow old without saying how I feel

About the trauma in my life I'm quick to disconnect

From other people, bad at relationships

I ain't evil, my heart's destroyed like battleships

So will you listen when I talk about my pain

Every night I looked in the mirror all I saw was shame

Like who the fuck am I? Will they remember my name

Blood stains on the floor, some things we can't change

I'm wishing for more, am I ungrateful for things

Or am I tired of living way below my means

What's inside of my mind? Is it death to my dreams

Sometimes I'm feeling so blind, lost inside everything

But I'm still moving, still doing what I'm doing

All these bad thoughts they always try to ruin

With knots in my stomach make me feel like I'm losing

I came up from nothing, you can see it in my music

All this pain in my head, I was thinking to myself

Am I gonna make it to be another to fail

Girls wanna chase it cuz they see that I'm real

But I ain't thinking that basic, I just want the dollar bills

All this pain in my head, I was thinking to myself

Am I gonna make it to be another to fail

Girls wanna chase it cuz they see that I'm real

But I ain't thinking that basic, I just want the dollar bills

I'm constantly in a different state of mind

So would you judge me based off of hearing some lies

Or could I tell you the truth would it take you by surprise

I ain't bulletproof when I'm feeling shattered inside

I'm always in the booth cuz it makes me feel alive

Cuz in reality hip-hop really saved my life

I was battling addiction, I couldn't sleep at night

Popping pills like prescriptions to take me in the flights

So will you listen when I talk about my pain

Every night I looked in the mirror, all I saw was shame

Like who the fuck am I? Will they remember my name

Blood stains on the floor, some things we can't change

I'm wishing for more, am I ungrateful for things

Or am I tired of living way below my means

What's inside of my mind? Is it death to my dreams

Sometimes I'm feeling so blind, lost inside everything

But I'm still moving, still doing what I'm doing

All these bad thoughts, they always try to ruin

With knots in my stomach, make me feel like I'm losing

I came up from nothing, you can see it in my music

All this pain in my head I was thinking to myself

Am I gonna make it or be another to fail

Girls wanna chase it cuz they see that I'm real

But I ain't thinking that basic I just want the dollar bills

All this pain in my head I was thinking to myself

Am I gonna make it to be another to fail

Girls wanna chase it cuz they see that I'm real

But I ain't thinking that basic I just want the dollar bills