I'm sorry to myself Lyrics

My silhouette looks great

My hair is pretty

I think I have too much weight

And I just wanna be skinny

I wish I was simply smaller

But life said I should be taller

I know that I should be grateful

But looking down is painful

I want to be skinny

And not have to be so tall

I just want to be pretty

And just wake up more small

Mirrors are my friend

Until it's time to take off my shirt

I just try to pretend

That seeing my body doesn't hurt

Stressing about people seeing my skin

I order a size up in everything

Wishing people wouldn't comment on my body

Cause every time I hear it my mind just gets foggy

I try to get on the scale every morning

To check that my weight isn't soaring

I'll skip a meal, try to feel

Less hungry, what's the deal?

I want to be skinny

And not have to be so tall

I want to be pretty

And just wake up more small

Mirrors are my friend

Until it's time to take off my shirt

I just try to pretend

That seeing my body doesn't hurt

When I grab the silverware

It tells me no, tells me no

Angels and devils in me

I don't know, I don't know

I can't tell the difference between them

This light never seemed so grey then

I don't know right from wrong here

I can't ever seem to quell my fear

I want to be skinny

And not have to be so tall

I just want to be pretty

And just wake up more small

Mirrors are my friend

Until it's time to take off my shirt

I just try to pretend

That seeing my body doesn't hurt