the worst thing that i ever did was heal Lyrics

I see myself, I don't know, who it is, where'd I go

All the things I thought I knew, they grew up, away they flew

I unlocked the past, gave me what I lacked

I started seeing demons I was feeding and all the shadows they cast

The letting go has helped me, but purging left me empty

I keep picking at myself to find where I'm still needing help

But I can't decipher what is real or lies

It's like the worst thing that I ever did was heal

It's funny the stuff I kept, I held my past until I wept

I was afraid I would make a huge mistake, or maybe that I'd make it

These things that were drilled into me when I grew up were holding me captive afraid I might screw up

But I still subscribed to the old way in lieu of the new one I knew of

The letting go has helped me, but purging left me empty

I keep picking at myself to find where I'm still needing help

But I can't decipher what is real or lies

It's like the worst thing that I ever did was heal

You know they say ignorance is bliss

I didn't sign up for all of this

Can't shut it down or turn around, I gotta keep going and going forever and ever

I keep picking at myself to find where I'm still needing help

But I can't decipher what is real or lies

It's like the worst thing that I ever did was heal