Gonna Love Me... Lyrics

Sometimes I don't feel like myself

Mindlessly watching someone else

Puppet on a string

Dancing to a beat that I can't hear

No part of me is truly whole

My mind still spins out of control

Still I fake a smile

Act like my whole life is dipped in gold

A laugh erupts from an empty place

Facade of joy, mask the hurt and pain

Calm, cool, collected, keep a soft expression

Hold the tears

Don't know how much more of this that I can take

Wanna free myself and ease the strain

Of all the constant pleas and chasing after feelings

Does it end

And I, I don't wanna give more

I just wanna live more

Fulfill all of my wants and my needs

I'm taking my life back

Not putting myself last

Now the next one I'm gonna love is me

No longer can I keep this going on

Wanna be who I really want

Can't keep running, need to get a grip on what I need

Some time to heal, time to feel

Time to learn and finally be

The woman that I want

Confident and bold, no regrets

Doing what I feel is right

What brings me joy and gives me light

Feeds my soul, makes me whole

Shows who I am inside

And I, I don't wanna give more

I just wanna live more

Fulfill all of my wants and my needs

I'm taking my life back

Not putting myself last

Now the next one I'm gonna love is me

(vocalising)

And I, I don't wanna give more

I just wanna live more

Fulfill all of my wants and my needs

I'm taking my life back

Not putting myself last

Now the next one I'm gonna love is me

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I should have known when we started that this couldn't work out

No matter how hard we tried, even the day that we parted

All the feelings that didn't reciprocate and the stress that has yet to alleviate

Has left me heavily guarded for the next since you deserted me

I guess in the midst of it all, if I'm being honest

I disregarded the fact that mind can tell you one thing

And yet the heart can soften

Cause this part is the hardest

What I'm trying to say is

I'm falling

Falling, in way too deep

Falling, can't catch my feet

Falling, feel like I can't breathe

Falling, don't know what's taking over me

Never thought that I could feel so conflicted

Never knew that you would get me addicted

Reminiscing about the first time we kicked it

Now I know for sure that I cannot kick this

Just don't know where we could go from here

Wish you could take this pain and ease my fears

In my heart I wanna keep you near

But my head says run and disappear

Lost in the clouds

Can't find my way out

Falling, in way too deep

Falling, can't catch my feet

Falling, feel like I can't breathe

Falling, don't know what's taking over me

Whole time feel like I'm lifting off

Probably cause I can't feel the ground

Maybe at first it was a high

But every high I guess must come down

You always right there when I call

I fell in love, you caught me

Pair of light shoes in the closet

I wasn't prepared for a fall

No parachute at all

No caution sign or warning

You got my mind all on you

You're wonderful, you're gorgeous

Honestly, you're worth it

Anniversaries and mortgage

You're exactly what I'm wanting

But I'm too used to running my

Apologies

It's not you

It's just the way I'm living

Want to do better

I just, I just don't know

I don't know what I'm doing

I started slipping

Now I'm

Falling, in way too deep

(I started slipping)

(Now I'm)

Falling, can't catch my feet

Falling, feel like I can't breathe

Falling, don't know what's taking over me

(I don't know what's taking over me)

I should've known when we started

That this couldn't work out