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I'm at a point in my life where I'd rather die a thousand deaths two thousand times than see my enemies rise

I'd rather be painted as the bad guy for telling truth and doing right I, fight on the daily with my love for spite it isn't right but,

Karma just takes too long sometimes, and I did not once sacrifice that feeling that I felt inside

Lord knows how many times I dropped my pride and

Lord knows the pain that I felt in my life pushed people to the side, feelings I've denied cause I've weighed pros and cons inside of my mind and hope just felt like fairy tales most of the time

Gaining clarity but losing peace of mind

I fought for a simple life but I'm learning it's not about what you want sometimes

How can I sit and justify her wrongs? I'm right I

Find myself switching back and forth sometimes

I want to cross the lines. I want to break the ties, I

Want to satisfy you inside and on the outside, Then

I think about if I forgive you then I'm breaking my morals because I cannot deal with someone that just tells me lies, but

I want to give it to you slowly while we locking eyes but it sound like you found somebody else other than me to no surprise it

It's like I'm still fighting for wrong rights.

You tamper with the truth just to fill me up with a false pride.

your top five me it's still me on an off night.

Forgot my birthday but it's okay if you working til' sunrise.

Sometimes I learn the hard way but I know what I'm fine in God's eyes and if not it's cool I seen the proudness in mom's eyes.

Nothing I really accomplished so don't throw a party when I die.

I know that it's a sin but the car that they sent I came in, doors open up for a high rise luxury suicide.

I made peace with my end and ain't nothing for me but dotted eyes and,

White men in suits that wanna split the deal but don't know my life and,

You listen to the music but don't take the time to read what I write and,

I'm still waging war with that good kid and this bad guy and some of y'all dig the bury, I hope in this life I might find some,

Way to carry all of this pain cause lord knows it can't wash away and the high tide just brings me back to those

dark nights and

Your inconsistency is a lack of apparent drive and my inconsistency is a sign that my soul's alive

I can't be back to my six when clock ticks for more time and,

You keep me inside the darkness but expect me to embrace the light.

I was the change that I wanted but seen how's it's a dying fight.

Stepped on used, abused, confused when every move a lose.

Taking all the options but then telling me to then choose.

Buried beneath your captions are small slivers of truth.

I'm fine thanks for asking just changes I'm seeing through.

Your favorite color was yellow and mine's was a sky blue but I'm starting to like black better and it's not like a number two but the show of my life endeavors and everything I've been through. Through all the years I've been severed from true self and construed from my mind that constantly weathered the pain that'll never subside. I've done decide

To not force what doesn't want me but to cut ties.

I can't make you see reality from what you like.

I have people who look and see my father's eyes and people who look and can't see the monster inside

I've been dead since 2016 and never felt more alive.

Damn right you'd be bitter in your spare time

I'd watched the world end and closed my eyes.

My mind feed off vengeance and spite to watch my enemy

Squirm, shrivel and die, lay course to a side that builds me a tower inside.

Can't die in enemy hands my pride is sky high, I'd up and take my life before giving you the satisfaction cause I been envisioned my last line.

Held a gun twice and ain't like it because it felt like the darkness started to well overturn and fold on that small light and all becomes a small fight.

And if God made me in image of him and I can start life then by all means I could chalk life for a small price I'm

Just trying to do things right I