the spear Lyrics

I left the lighthouse in the morning

And reached the arctic by the evening

I was lost in a flood, run red with your blood

And the sun never sets it just circles the sea

It's been eight days since you've died

I don't remember what you look like

So with breaking hands I trace your deepfake in the snow

Falling and falling and falling and falling and

Failing and failing and failing and failing and

Falling and failing and failing and falling and

Failing and failing and failing and failing

I'm flailing and sobbing, a-turning and choking

Hopeless and tired and grieving and losing

Looking for something, something alive

Looking for something, I wish I was like you

If only god could save me now

For the translucent moon is falling down

For the oceans dead and quiet and red

For the wind no longer blows and the night won't end

The scientist winding his rubber band arms

And I was used as the spear

So I twirled, and I twirled deep into your heart

As you sat on the cross, like a deer

And god, you, remain helpless with your arms up in heaven

As the deer is rendered to blood

God why wont you look at me

The failure, the imprisoning

Is there a single flooding wound you could stop

Falling and falling and falling and falling and

Failing and failing and failing and failing and

Falling and failing and failing and falling and

Failing and failing and failing and failing

Falling and falling and falling and falling and

Failing and failing and failing and failing and

Falling and failing and failing and falling and

Failing and failing and failing and failing

Well the road is dark

And my legs won't work

And the the drivers tired

And the fire is submerged

So if you were the tunnel

I was the funnel

I was the funnel

I am the funnel

It's all my fault

I just want to run

But my legs won't work

I will scorch the earth

I wish I was like you

It shouldn't have been you

I wish god would kill me

I'm alive and I'm squirming

I wish I was like you

I wish I was like you

His hands held you lifeless

I couldn't be strong like carlos

I couldn't be strong like Klara

I am still in the arctic

But I think its time I go home

before my departure

I left an angel in the snow

The daybreak was gorgeous

And a new day turns over

The grieving is torture

The light won't go out but the worst isn't over

To be very clear

To make it fundamentally understood

He didn't spare you

The suffocating, cranking hands were a turning lever

And he didn't spare you

In the flash fire of grief

In the storm of rubbing alcohol

The melting body gave out

But i swear

Somewhere

There were soft ribbons of memory

And a light

But to be very clear

To make it absolutely understood

He didn't spare you

And he wouldn't spare me

And he scoops me up

And placed me inside the computer