just a little girl who didn't know Lyrics

I've always had this thing for masochism

You know when it hurts the skin

The heart feels a little lighter, attracted to what hurts

Not in an obvious way

I would find the little things to take the pain away

I was eight when I first started, backgrounded from my parents yells

I would slip my hand to the side of my tights

Press my nails in, then I'd close my eyes

Goodnight

They call it "destructive"

But it actually helps

He was there for me

There was nobody else

I'm so mad, angry like a bitch

Who the fuck pushed me into this?

Now I'm in, I swear I can't get out

There are way too many ways, I can't count

Voices are loud

Anytime, anywhere

They come out

I really don't think I can live without

I can't live without

I was twelve when things got serious

Started bleeding when I felt, cause I hated feeling

Always felt too much, so I "healed it" by bleeding

Does it make sense to you?

Just a little girl who didn't know

How to deal with her strong emotions

No parent, no one taught her

How could they be parents if they're kids themselves?

They call it "destructive"

But it actually helps

He was there for me

There was nobody else

I'm so mad, angry like a bitch

Who the fuck pushed me into this?

Now I'm in, I swear I can't get out

There are way too many ways, I can't count

Voices are loud

Anytime, anywhere

They come out

I really don't think I can live without

I can't live without

I was sixteen when I started having sex

With multiple random strangers met on the internet

Sometimes clubs, sometimes bars, it didn't matter

No one ever minded if I was drunk

It felt like love then it felt like shit

Hurting myself wasn't skin-like anymore

Nobody had to notice

So I found a way, to hurt myself even more

I'm so mad, angry like a bitch

Who the fuck pushed me into this?

Now I'm in, I swear I can't get out

There are way too many ways, I can't count

Voices are loud

Anytime, anywhere

They come out

I really don't think I can live without

I can't live without

Just a little girl who didn't know